I'm very sorry for your loss, there, fellow
Just hang in there, I believe that you can go through this tough times and come out as a better, stronger person. And I hope that things will be better for you in the future.
I know I'm just a random person, but if you feel like you need anyone to talk to, feel free to send a note or anything

better random guy then no one at all. Thanks man...I really appreciate it, though I am curios as to how you found me anyway.