I really wish I had a Fox pelt to pet/hold/wear for some comfort right now.. I’m having panic attacks off and on because I got news that there may be something seriously wrong with my Grandma, but I don’t know what. My Mom wants to tell me in person tomorrow so I guess I’ll find out then.. But I really don’t know what to do to comfort myself, I feel very insecure and I keep having crying bouts. I haven’t had a bad panic attack in years.. I feel like I need to crawl and hide under some security blanket for comfort.

I don’t know. My Mom was very vague over text which is what is seriously worrying me. Basically she said that “I need to see you tomorrow to talk to you about something important in person.” Now I can’t seem to stay calm for long in between panics. I actually started crying infront of my manager at work and had to go home. What do I do..?


Sorry guys, just wanted to get it out.. Depending on what I hear tomorrow, I may not be so active as I have been. Also I'll apologize in advance if I seem upset/grumpy/snappy at anything. I'm usually good about bottling up my emotions but in this case I just don't know.