Im gonna be a real Man! ^-^
12 years ago
So if any are interested on whats been going on in my life here's a minor update.
currently single again -_-" cause i'm just fucking cursed with horrendous bad luck and a bad temper i guess.
I work a cheap minimal wage job delivering pizza (which i kind of like doing anyways). I still perform in DC, actually got 2 shows lined up soon.
but the really good news is, that since i have no one to take care of any more or to distract me, i finally decided to get in gear and start my transition. I already talk to the Therp and he approved, so i got two more doc visits and i'll be able to take my first shot of T ^-^ IM SO EXCITED. I cant wait for my voice to drop, and grow a nice beard ^-^ ~sigh.... no more waiting
my goal for the summer is to have enough $ saved that'll be moving to CA, and start a new life, and pursue my dream jorb there.
currently single again -_-" cause i'm just fucking cursed with horrendous bad luck and a bad temper i guess.
I work a cheap minimal wage job delivering pizza (which i kind of like doing anyways). I still perform in DC, actually got 2 shows lined up soon.
but the really good news is, that since i have no one to take care of any more or to distract me, i finally decided to get in gear and start my transition. I already talk to the Therp and he approved, so i got two more doc visits and i'll be able to take my first shot of T ^-^ IM SO EXCITED. I cant wait for my voice to drop, and grow a nice beard ^-^ ~sigh.... no more waiting
my goal for the summer is to have enough $ saved that'll be moving to CA, and start a new life, and pursue my dream jorb there.
Now i could also go into how in general society is a bit biased because of the hetero male ratio whatever, but it that can be a heated debate on some things.
In the end really it boils down to the person whose going to transition. Reason why im on a fast track compared to others is because Ive been wanting to do this for 6 years. I discovered it was possible when i was 19years old, and researched it continuously ever since. The past 3 years i've been living basically Male in the eyes of everyone else and myself. Which includes binding and packing every day and having ppl use male pronouns and the name i prefer. I finally went to a Therapist who deals with transitioning ppl and explained to him how i felt and how this wasnt an over night thing, and that im pretty well knowledge as to what will happen,as well as level headed enough and so on. I also made sure he know i wasnt crazy either lol. Because a persons mental health is very important for 2 reasons in this process. 1. because some ppl male think they want to be the opposite gender and later on come to regret it for various reasons. and 2. when your body is being introduced to a completely different hormone, it can temporarily screw with your mentality. Example with Testosterone, increased aggression can occur. Basically you go through puberty all over again.
I hope this helps, i can go in depth on things if you'd like. I dont mind answering questions and such.
My advice is take your time, because if you rush things, it can cause more problems and heart ache. However, it is something, when your ready, you may want to bring up to your fiancee. and it doesn't have to be a straight forward thing, just a simple "Hay what do you think of..."
And im here for you, if you need any information on any of this i know alot for both ends. Plus sometimes its just good to have another person to talk to.