I dont know why I feel so heart broken and lonely... I have a ton f friends... a semi okay life... and yet I feel like I have nothing... Like... theres a part of me thats missing or theres a huge void in my heart where no matter how much love it is filled with... All I feel and see is darkness... Like a never ending nightmare of hate and despair... truth is I have felt this way for several years now... I just always kept it to myself but I figured maybe telling it out loud to everyone might help... idk anymore... all I want is to feel happiness... havnt felt it in a while... Why do I feel this way? I remember when it started too... it was when I was 13... I was madly in love with this girl and we went out for like half a year before she cheated on me then left me... I was never the same after that... I have had a very hard time commiting to anyone in particular... I try but it never seems to work out... Am I destined to fail and live alone? What could I have done differently and more importantly what am I missing in life to cause me to feel this way... *sighs sadly and shrinks myself to 3 inches tall and lays down on a warm cookie with my tail curled around me and my wings closed on me* I need guidance or help but I dont know where to turn... *sniffles...* I feel so alone and scared and helpless... why? *hides my face* An no... im not emo or looking for attention... am simply looking for answers... Im tired of feeling this pain and they say that talking about is the first step... well... ive made the first step... now what?...