I'm trying to get my life to slow down right now. Put on the brakes. My life has been extremely complicated and stressful for months. And so far, I just can't find the chance to heal.

I know it may seem to some like I've been on hiatus for a long time, but it's not the case. I've been busy and under stress in the extreme all this time. I just haven't been online is all. It's only been in the last couple of weeks that the load started to relent.

I have little strength left at this point. I've been heavily emotionally wounded and stressed over these months. Several times I've skirted the edge with the beginnings of symptoms of a nervous breakdown.

At this point, I'm just trying to crawl into my cave and heal. I need time. But I can't seem to get it. Every time I'm just starting to relax and recover, something will happen. The phone will ring again. Something always happens.

At this point, I'm just turning everyone down. Yes, I know you really need me to do something for you. Yes, I know I have responsibilities. Yes, I know it's just one little thing. Yes, I know you can't do it without me. Yes, I.. KNOW...

And then I can't rest because I feel so guilty. I want to help. I don't want to let anyone down.

Social situations have always been stressful for me. I'm a big spikey dragon. I'm not very good at it. And so even those kinds of things are a stress I can't handle right now.

So please everyone... just... let me have some time, okay? I promise I'll do everything you want me to when I feel better.

But right now, I just need to hide in the back of my cave somewhere and let my multitude of wounds heal.

I'm so afraid I'll lose my friends in the meantime. You don't know how hard it is for me to say no to anyone. But it's what I have to do. I'm hoping I'll still have a couple of friends left after this.