ugh

i feel so dead art-wise

i still have requests i need to finish

or start

i hate feeling so awkward with the tablet and unskilled in general

i have all these anatomy and art books and shit but i never bother to sit down and try to LEARN i just doodle stupid shit :(

i draw a lot more than my relatively empty galleries would lead people to believe, i mean i have stacks and stacks of notebooks but i guess they're like my ~diaries~

most of what i draw is just stupid embarrassing self indulgence and not really meant for public consumption

motivation = 0