Alright, here's the deal. I've got one more thing before I leave for good mostly because I can't stand the fact that people are misinformed.

First off; about my last picture. Yes, it was vent art. No, it's not for sympathy or whatever crap some idiots are spewing around. I've done plenty of vent art before and no one ever said that stupid shit before. Seriously if I just wanted attention I would, quite literally say so.

I hate to do this but I guess I should explain. I've dealt with suicidal ideation since I was 6, for reasons I'd rather not get into. It came back a couple months ago, again, for reasons that are none of anybody's business. I draw pics like that all the time to calm myself.

Now, I've been dealing with a lot of dysphoria issues pretty much ever since puberty. I have done vent art about the subject before. This is part of the reason why I have become increasingly uncomfortable as having Aura as my fursona. At first it didn't bug me that she was a she, but as time went on it did. I also became increasingly uncomfortable associating her name with my fetish art. So I decided to kill her off. I had wanted to do so for a while now, so it's not really that sudden. That's all there is to it, mostly anyway.

As for the laughing, it's a representation that people don't take mental illness seriously. They think it's a thing to pity or look down upon. As did a certain user here, who had the gall to not only express that when I admitted something quite personal, but as I found out several weeks later, made a journal with the intent to not only turn around my response to such mocking from him into something else entirely (in response to him saying he pitied me, I explained that a large portion of the furry fandom is mentally ill, so he shouldn't have such an attitude) He of course made it look like I was saying that furries were crazy. He was doing this to fuel his own ego as many people flocked to it and left very hateful and ignorant comments about me without even knowing what really happened, and he egged them on. He was just looking for validation through bullying. Of course, when I found out I explained to the people what really happened, and he soon deleted the journal after that...further proving that he intentionally trying to be hostile and get people to make fun of me without knowing what happened. And then some douchebag who, after asking what happened, I confided in them, decided to make a journal themselves with the purpose of saying terrible things about me =/

I drew the picture not just with me in mind, but all the people who have fallen victim to harassment because of their differences and such horrific attitudes like this person has. It was a bit of a tribute to all the people who have suffered due to the likes of them and society as a whole.

It's funny, I've often gotten attacked when I've stood up for other people. The whole thing started because I explained that they were being insensitive towards people who suffer from painful periods (they made a completely irrelevant joke about a song title that I used to describe my mood) and they were going to act that way, hopefully they aren't dating a girl since such a comment would probably be hurtful. Any decent person would never make a joke about that, as I know a few people who really suffer greatly, so in respect for those people, it's not good to joke about.

In the whole thing, perhaps I worded things badly, but I don't think what I was getting at was too hard to understand. Apparently people, including him think I called him sexist, when I merely stated that what they said was sexist. It's funny since they accused me for being sexist when I said it was offensive for them to misgender me. (I don't mind female pronouns, as I don't care either way being agender, but don't call me a girl or woman)

Ah well. It's not the sole reason I left, but kinda the nail in the coffin so to speak. I never really had much of a problem with other furries as a whole, they are generally nice and quite relatable as many of them have similar issues as myself. However babyfurs...

It's kinda odd that I still had baby/littlefur followers after making a post pretty much asking them to unfollow me...considering I hate the majority of them. Issues like above are faaar from the first time I've had a babyfur act like that towards me. (Normal furries, never such a problem) So there are only a few that I like. Despite calling them cliqueish, selfish, ignorant, and immature, they still followed me. (Yes I will admit it when I do or say mean things) Kinda funny as I actually did insult them, and no one got upset, yet when I didn't even insult anybody, I get journals about how I called them this or that when I didn't.

I doubt anyone will read this since it's too long, but it bothered me to know that people are so misinformed. So I make this just in case, to ease my mind anyway.