Okay lets get one thing straight, when you break up with someone you don't have a right to come back and tell them that if they change everything about themself then you'll be with them. You already lost that right when you broke up with them in the first place! Either you love a person for who they are or you don't, there are no ultimadums. There is no "I'd love you and be with you if you do XYZ..." You are a fucking moron if you think you can manipulate a person like that when yet again YOU broke up with THEM. You already TOLD them what you think about them when you did that! The only thing you are saying here is "you weren't good enough for me." Guess what, I WAS, you just refused to see it, and now that you are gone you'll never get to see. But hey, that was the choice YOU made. Maybe if I actually HAD someone who was interested in what I do, instead of NEVER BEING THERE, things might have been different. So what is this magical "I'm here to watch you grow now?" Fuck you! I've already grown! I did it while you weren't here, while you were busy, you know, NOT being a part of my life.

Here have a list:

I can bake AND cook now (even though I still say I can't XD)

I have a ton more friends now, both online and off

I have become an extremely sociable person

I'm looking into being crew for podcasts, and voice overing games

Hell I am even entertaining the though of becoming a certified lifeguard, and volunteering my time to the local YMCA.

But you don't know ANY of that because I don't feel the need to hop on any journal, blog, or facebook to document what is going on. I don't HAVE to do that any more.

So we get back together, what then? You going to disappear for weeks at a time again? Are we going to live seperate lives and hardly get to say "good morning" to each other, much less have quality time? Who says I want a life like that? Who says I want to barely get to see the person I love? It sure as fucking hell isn't me.

There are people who have seen what you've said to me, and every single one thinks you're an idiot, and an asshole to boot. You know what, I have to agree. You avoided me, ignored me, and did everyhthing in your power to act like I didn't even exist. Now you want to say that I have a chance to be back with you? Why would I want to? After putting up with all of that, and being thrown away, why should I come back to someone who puts me down? I now own the confacence that you stripped away from me. I had to out of nesesity.

Don't get me wrong I loved you, I still do. I loved you so much that I was willing to overlook all of your negative traits, and focused solely on the good ones. Because that is what love is, accepting a person for who they are no matter what. I feel sorry for you, I'm sorry that you never learned that lesson. I am sorry that your selfishness has cost you one of the greatest things you ever had in your life, unconditional love. All I ever wanted was you, but you wanted more then me.

And so now is the time to really make the choice, for that I leave you with this.

http://youtu.be/YJlOQO6ZKbY