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13 years ago
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yes another time, the same story...
someone made me happy..... i thought it would be luck, but..... he told me that he would love me...
he seemed to be happy..... i really enjoyed every moment with him... my "good friend" and mate...
i gave him the last piece of my heart and.... trusted him, too much i thought tonight.
he broke my heart and said that he just wanted to make me happy....:
but how can someone be happy ....living a lie...
i dunno....
i feel useless, loveless , cant trust anyone....
its just like 5 jears ago.... it makes me scared... it was the worst time : i done worse things to myself.
i dont want do to it again..
with my art.... its difficulty i have veeeerry much sketches... but i dont get any of these finished.
and now that....
i just feel useless...
art is my life. the last important thing to me.
hope my next journal is more positiv, i apoligize .
someone made me happy..... i thought it would be luck, but..... he told me that he would love me...
he seemed to be happy..... i really enjoyed every moment with him... my "good friend" and mate...
i gave him the last piece of my heart and.... trusted him, too much i thought tonight.
he broke my heart and said that he just wanted to make me happy....:
but how can someone be happy ....living a lie...
i dunno....
i feel useless, loveless , cant trust anyone....
its just like 5 jears ago.... it makes me scared... it was the worst time : i done worse things to myself.
i dont want do to it again..
with my art.... its difficulty i have veeeerry much sketches... but i dont get any of these finished.
and now that....
i just feel useless...
art is my life. the last important thing to me.
hope my next journal is more positiv, i apoligize .
Du bist nicht nutzlos, nicht ohne Liebe und du kannst Leuten vertrauen.
In diesem Moment mag alles duester erscheinen, aber das ist bloss die Depression, irgendein dunkler Teil von dir der dir daran die Schuld gibt. Warum? Du bist ganz klar hier derjenige der ungerecht behandelt wurde und wenn mir eins klar ist dann dass du was besseres als das verdient hast als was vorgelogen zu bekommen.
Konzentrier dich auf deine guten Freunde, lass dir ein wenig halt geben. Heul dich mal aus und was ich denke was ganz wichtig ist, erlaub dir mal wuetend zu sein. Nicht auf dich, sondern auf den Kerl der dich so behandelt hat. Glaub mir, dass ist mehr als gerechtfertigt.
Ich wuerd gern mehr schreiben, aber ich bin auf dem Sprung zur Arbeit. Heut Abend reden wir mal richtig. *feste drueck*
*dich ganz doll knuddel*
Du hast gute Freunde die für dich da sind, das weisst du!