*sighs* this week for me is always one that I try and put a smile on and just brave out. It was 4 years ago this week that I attempted to end my life which thankfully didn't succeed.

I try to just try and forget about that day but every year around this time I can't help but not think about it. I just feel down most of the time and I find it difficult to motivate myself.

Of course I'm grateful to have people who can support me and lend a *virtual* shoulder to cry on, non more so than my fiancé.

It just seems that everything this week has been one stressful thing after another. I almost lost it at a work colleague because he was joking around with me and I wasn't in the mood for joking around. Then yesterday I got the blame from my brother and sister because it is apparently my responsibility to cook everything for them and that made them late seeing our nan.

I just want this week to be over so I can focus on more positive things to come in the future.