I got a good pep talk from a friend of mine, so now things aren't as hopeless as before. My economic situation actually got a little worse since then but shortly after it got a little better. I'm still far from solvent and have no income, though.

In the meantime is my birthday, coming up on the 23rd. I never really got a good party as a kid, mostly because my mother is a sociophobe and couldn't handle it. There were a few memorable birthdays, like the time I (as a 13-year-old who could pass himself off as a 7-year-old) went into the little kids' play-gym and evaded authorities. Over time, though, it's just grown to mean less and less to me. Because of my financial situation, I've already given up on getting or doing anything at all, let alone for myself. Art would've been nice, but I can't afford it. Money would help, but if I could get some I wouldn't be in this situation. All I really wish is that I could've done something for my step-brother, whose birthday is one day after mine. He's 16 and in his prime, despite where he's come from and gone through.