I have been on FA for close to 2 years now, and I have really come to call it a second home to me. I know it may seem strange, but this site, and the people I've met have put more emotion into my life than anything I've ever done. I have gone through bitter self-discovery, pain and heartbreak, joy and love, dark depressing times and happy bubbly feelings. It's hard to explain unless you've been in my shoes. I have struggled with my sexuality and gender identity for many years, and the community here, has helped me to find comfort and peace. I had found my first true love on here 2 years ago, and even though he broke my heart, it helped me to mature into who I am today. I admit to originally joining this site to explore my bi-curiosity and sexual things, but have since greatly come to embrace this community as one that is open to me and all my quirky traits, and not just a porn site. Yes, we all enjoy the naughty stuff of course, but what I mean to say, and I'm not saying well, is "thank you" to all of you. Bitter or sweet, each and every one of you has made an impact on my life. Many of you (especially those I frequently talk to on skype) have been even closer friends to me than those in real life. This is why I say I am very sorry for not being here much. *sigh* I apologize quite often, but it's time I level with everyone. For quite some time now, FA has been unfortunately a rough place for me to go to. I have not been able to read many journals or read notes without having some bad news come up. I care very much about people, especially my friends, and it breaks my heart when I can't do ANYTHING to help them. You. My friends online. I have been helped greatly by you, but when I hear from some of you about your pains at home....I don't know.... I just wish I could help. My way I want to try to help, is by actually hearing your problems though. I am in school to become a psychologist, so if any of you have a problem, I want to be there as someone to talk to. Sorry about the long journal, but with all the recent things happening both here and at home, I just wanted to address some concerns.