I don’t know what to do. There is just so much that goes on, so much that I can’t keep up with, so much that I am afraid of. My whole being hurts! My head, my heart, my chest, my arms, my legs, every fiber of my being, my whole soul is in pain. I can’t explain how it hurts. No, moving does not hurt. No, whenever I am touched I do not hurt. I feel like breaking down into tears, but for what reason?

There are so many great and amazing friends I have made in school…but I hardly talk to any of them anymore. I have made so many new friends on this site, ones that I want to keep…and yet I hardly get to talk to them. So many people from my past, ones I thought I had lost have all started to come back to me at the SAME time! Everyone is so different. A once sweet and lovable young sir is now a tall, handsome sex crazed man. I promised myself so long ago to never send pictures of ‘myself’ to anyone ever again…and yet, here I am falling into the old habit with another strikingly handsome fellow. What am I to do?

The world is such a big and scary place. I know that I will have to eventually move on and grow up in such a world, but I am scared of it; so much so that wicked and evil thoughts that have long been dormant are now resurfacing. I fear this world so much that the thoughts of eventually just escaping it flood my mind. I try to fight it, I really do, but nothing I do works…and I drown in these thoughts.

Further and further I fall into the empty abyss. Am I really falling? Am I moving in slow motion? I cannot tell. I just wish someone, anyone, would save me. One person to save me from my thoughts, from myself and my fears. I have so many people who I want to talk to, but none of their words seem to get through to me.

I am lying in a hospital bed, the IV has run dry, and the heart monitor is beeping less and less. The hospital is abandoned, and I feel alone. Can anyone save me? Am I worth being saved?