Yeah, I got carried away with a recent journal I made, and as many of you that made happy, equally as many I scared away. I'm sorry. I get overly excited and blinded by feelings I think I have, but don't know if can happen. I did not mean to worry or upset anyone, and just wish anyone to understand the struggle in my heart I suffer from many decisions made in the past months.

Ill not be posting things of that nature for a long while, until I know that they will be met with positive reception. Ill also for the sake of preserving something wonderful that I already have, exercise patience, and not rush or get my hopes up.

You guys are right, I'm young and have my whole life ahead of me to find the right person. Despite the feeling I may have, I'm going to back down in hopes of time will tell and prove to me that what I dream will become a true reality.

Again, please do not consider me someone bad because I have feelings only I can justify. I'm only human after all, we all suffer this flaw, no one is perfect, and everyone is prone to the same weakness.

If anything I just have the courage to speak my mind (despite regretting it immediately after.) and the balls to be able to apologize.