please dont hurt your self... i do care about you so much! -is crying- im so sorry you feel that way... i know how it feels to go through that. i went through a big thing when my bf killed him self... so please dont do that because i dont want to lose another person i care so much about... -holds her close- yea its hard right now... but that doesnt mean it will always be hard... idk if i could handle losing you... i care about you so much... your of the friends i treasure deeply... -sighs sadly- im sure this doesnt mean anything for you... but i mean every word...

-holds onto weakly-
I don't want to disappoint or hurt you in any way..
I'm crying too, and I love you a lot.. I just seriously don't know how much longer I can take this..
The only reason I'm still alive is because of people like you..
I'm trying.. I really really am trying... It's just...
I don't know..

try not to be so negative about your situation. yea its hard and stuff but that doesnt mean it will last. -holds you and pets your head- just think, you someone took you in and is caring for you, you have a great talent for art that is amazing, you have people who care about you, your in good health, and so much more! look at all the good things instead of the bad. i love you a lot too. your like a sister to me!

You are right, I do need to focus on the positive things, it's just very hard to do so
when I'm overwhelmed with guilt, depression, and anger for myself.
I promise I'll begin to try harder to change my frame of mind, but it's not going to be easy...
And you're like a sister to me too. And I love and appreciate you very much.

i know its not easy to change your way of thinking with so much bad sit around you. its hard for most to cope. you shouldnt have any of those bad things for your self because your not a bad person, your situation is just bad. as soon as my money comes in im going a pay off what i owe to this one person and then 18$ is all yours! n.n its not much but its a start for you

Thank you so much... It helps immensely, you have no idea..
Having nothing, that means a lot..
Thank you so much Snow.

sure thing! you just got to look on the bright side of a bad situation. it will make it seem not so bad n.n i admit that i dont do that either v.v but its always good to do so. im going to add you on my page as my sister n.n

I will do the same..
<3
Thank you, Snow. For everything.

you know you can always come right to me if you need someone to talk to or even some money. i will always try to give what i can, even if its like 5$ x.x at least your out of that other house and now you can have a better existence from that horrible place and when i get the money you will be coming to live with me. i want you to be there so i can help you n.ni want to be able to sit there everyday and know your safe. i know its selfish... but thats how i feel about you...

I don't think it's selfish.... it feels good to be wanted somewhere..
You are so very kind.
I posted a journal about headshots.. hopefully I can get some help..

i just want to make sure that your taken care of even if its not by me. you deserve a nice homke with people who care about you -hugs-

Where do u currently reside (state wise?)

I'm in california right now.

I would if you could find a way here to tn let you live with me and help you get a job :)

That means a lot to hear, thank you so much..
I really mean it.

Awe sweety its not a problem *hugs* you mean a lot to more people then you know I'm across the us and you mean a lot to me *hugs*

-Hugs tightly-
You've really helped me smile.
Thank you, I don't get the chance to smile enough lately.
That's so sweet of you to say.. <3

a natural medicine for anything is a smile *hugs* and sometimes is great to hear from others just how much we mean to them......when we don't hear it often enough we as humans tend to forget ourselfs....and sink into the bottoms of our hearts *holds hand out* let me be the first to tell you, you are an amazing person, look at what you have lived through and persevere through every day. Look at the amazing art you have created, you have made a mark in this world to many people. And look at how you for serviving through what you have inspire others who may have it worse....you my friend my sister...are an amazing person *hugs, holds hand back out* let me..be the first to pull you out of the bottom of your heart and help keep you balanced at the top. When ever you need me message me heck if you want my # call me :) Ilove you for who you are and you have soo many more friends no matter where they are who love you! *hugs*

I believe every word you've said..
When people forget about compassion it makes life so dark.
I always forget why I loved this community so much, because I keep running from it when I should be running to it.
You all are more of a family than anyone I've ever truly had. If it weren't for the people I've met here
I'd be a goner..
-hugs tightly-
Thank you so much for reminding me why it is worth the fight..
If I had a phone I'd call, but I can't afford one..
I will keep in touch though, I promise.. <3

Yes do keep in touch! Anything Ican do even if its talk Iwill try to help any way Ican *nuzzles*

-Nuzzles softly-
I will, and you have so much already, thank you.
<3

I can't tell you what to think or feel, I can only suggest things, I can only ask things, that you keep on getting out of bed even if there's nothing to look forward to, that you live each day with the feeling that there is someone who cares, because while I feel there is little I can do from behind a computer screen, I can say that I do care, that you are important, and that even though it seems life puts you down, You do make everyday special. Please don't ever give up, please find some way, some reason to push on. And should you ever feel the need to talk, by all means a friend waits here to listen to you.
Please don't give up.

The responses I have been getting from this have sincerely made me feel a lot better..
I still have a lot bordering in my mind, but thank you so much..
I appreciate your kindness.. I'm trying my best to push on.. and having support makes a huge difference..
Because now I feel like I have more of a reason to continue on.. I was so convinced I had nothing at all..
But you and others have proved me wrong.. I have friends.. I just need to open to them..
Thank you.. I promise to keep on trying..

I'm very glad to hear that. Give me a ring if your ever feeling down again please.

I will. :)

I'm really pulling for you sweetie, if you weren't so far away I might be able to help more. What I can say is that I'm 99% sure my mate and I will be commissioning you further :) Just need to wait til next Friday when we get our next paychecks. Hang in there honey, people do care about you and people always will. I know times are really tough you've just got to hang on. With things being this bad you're due for one hell of an up swing, just have to keep chugging til you hit it and then you'll be flying :) You'll see.

Thank you so much Feugen, thank you so so much for being so patient, caring, and understanding..
I appreciate everything you've done for me, and I'm working hard on your headshots as we speak.
I hope to make it to that up swing, it'd be nice to feel like that again.. :)

Of course honey and I'm VERY excited to see the finished product and will probably getting more :P And don't worry, I'm sure you'll hit that upswing again. Just remember there's always people out there who care and want to help.

I'll keep it close to heart, I'm going to focus on that now..