So, we all got my crazy mother... Who is a part of a "church" whose goal seems to overgrow liberalism and forever ban almost everything in the universe, including science, homosexuality and their rights, personal freedom, and everything, while they allow themselves to unlawfully trade money.
I have told you two times that my mother has stepped in my sexual life's porn part, since she didn't discover the rest. I would get a girlfriend, but locally, She would manipulate her beliefs... So, my best bet is distant relationships like my dear  dio_dillen and my also dear  heatherv089 . If my mother knew I'm in love with 2+ girls tho, she wold try to force me to get rid of some, and if she knew about whet we believe, she would tell me to get rid of them... But I love them, and nothings gonna change it.

Universally, mother has problem with everything, and bases her hatred with bibles, and if someone say a single word of disagreeing, or just their own opinion, she immediately rages and says that bible say this and bible says that. Not only on sexual matters, but also, on other religions, movies, television, science, and almost everything.

For example, she picks on the Catholics being the most fake religion ever, idolizing Jesus' mother. She also speaks about Buddhists being invaders, and also, idolizing their god "Buddha", without even knowing them. Free christians? Nah, she blames them for standing in satan's name. Satanists... don't ask.. Totemists? luckily she was never heard about totemism, but she already mentioned "dreamcatchers" being full of demons who possess you and make you kill... How many nonsense about religions she never really saw...

An other example was pokemon: she burned everything related to it (To us it was simply a cartoon, we didn't know about the games) because she saw the pokemons demonic.... And she has forbid us from watching anime, and every action cartoon which had monsters or just ugly men in it.

Music... She thinks metal is the music of satanism, and tried to forbid us from listening music that doesn't relate to god in any way. There's a very few "non-praise" music that she can take, but thats very few. She sees Rap causing people adultery, and as well, techno as automatically the drug-giver music...
Music is a given art of feelings, the audio version of expressing emotion... yet she has to "teach" everything that is not god's praise, is the satan's praise. And gives a very hurtful label on all music of that kind: "Világi" which translates to worldly... This word wasn't unusual in other churches, but hearing from her, its like its a bad thing.

Games: Yea yea she doesn't care my games much, but still she labels games too. She only sees the violence in them, and swearing in cases, and as well, the monsters... ignoring the plot and everything.

Her opinion on the world is that "Satan rules everyone but you can set yourself free by believing". She only considers a believer who is a member of her church, like everyone else only says they believe, but cant prove it, and instead, are led by satan.

Also, she believes that a naked person radiates demons... that means whenever you are naked and someone sees you, you are being possessed by satan.. AGAIN... She also sees sex something that is unneeded, and unless done in marriage and to make kids, its a sin. And also, if its done homosexually, she considers it a sin, only to make herself even more sure, she comes with AIDS and other sexually spread diseases.

And, what I am really concerned about: She thinks only god may decide who is your love... you didn't see them, you never met, yet you will see their face in your dream... wouldn't that be adultery too? In once case, the church has forbid two lovers from each other because "they didnt fit", and the "pastor" told them that he will look for the right one for them because he's led by god... I don't believe in true love of that sorts that it was decided before we were born, and this is a big influence why I drop that concept from me, really far away.
Instead to me, true love lies in honestly, if you don't only say you love her... you really mean it. Yet, mom says that love comes from God.
But there's a jamming place... she often tells us something that sounds like "the only true love may be god himself, so we are only allowed to have sex with her" or something. PLeasing god or something...

I am concerned about everything she says nowadays... She judges, she criticizes, and she avoids... And "our family is in the state it is now because of the stuff we watch, listen to, or even, create"?
Also, I cant sleep because of what I watch or listen? Because She doesn't like them?
I'm afraid I am in danger with her, no matter how she wants me the best... she does it by judging, then explaining herself out of everything.
I tough Christianity is about acceptance, and being a good neighbor... yet... she does the very opposite of all of that. And she shows the marks of having an ill short of patience. Or even worse: being neurotic.
She says my sister suffers her adultery past, and that she lives with her boyfriend without even marrying... I believe its only because Her boyfriend is agressive and doesn't ever use logic.

What is the concept of a good family is perfectly mistaken by my mother as I heard from my sisters. Before my sister left our home, she used my sister to work instead of her. Kriszta, who is otherwise a better person than my mother, just still... manipulated, often complained that she didnt let her learn, because she had to do the washing, and left her no time to truly learn. Wich is what she often denies, and says that my Sister have avoided learning... I often saw her crying, and running away from home.

My father was a strong drinker. At least thats how mother described her. But his life was less concerned, because he tough outside the bible, instead of forcing any religion onto us. He knew that mother's belief often forbid the very innocent stuff, and saw us bored, with no childhood. So big bro and big sis were standing in his side often because he let us do a lot more than mother did. I didn't, and I regret it.

Mother's belief made us lie to her often, and what we watched was always a secret.

I began concerning her state asa good influence when I "tried" her church. I worried about how they talked about the world, and saw someone who often had shaking feet and arms, also, head. They also kept talking about how this world will fall and how god will destroy everything, replacing everything with gods stuff... Also called: the apocalypse. The reason I tought it was a good idea to be "chirstian" was to prevent that, and I got disappointed real quick. Yet I waited to quit until mother found out I masturbate X_X She said homosexual people so it and I built a wall between me and god, and its up to me to destroy it... I was forbid from computer because of that. I lied to her that something is "forcing" me to do it... and she said it was a demon. When I renember back to it, I regret even looking into that sect.
Then she wanted to forbid me from drawing, because all I draw i dogmen, wich she saw demonic. I didnt draw porn about them, yet, she somehow saw them demonic. And tried to violently take it away from me. When I tried to make a doggie costume, outside furry yet, she told me not to hide my human being from god.
I hoped she stops being that way, but then... conflicts after conflicts over small things... She even had the idea to leave the old house multiple times, the house I loved a lot. Then, when mom and dad suddenly divorced, My brother followed father, telling my mother she was a bad mother and disappeared from the house for long time. I must admit he had a better life until grandmother's alcoholism got over her. When I tried to shake my mother's religion off, while she was forcibly trying to make me stay in, I had the idea of following him. I loved visiting grandmother's house. It was a better place than home... Where who knows when, mother begins to attempt manipulating me into her religion back, and wanted to forbid me from computer just because of that small shit... I got rebellous over her, and when we moved in, I swore I'll be a snake from that moment on. Only thanks to my laziness I failed X_X also, I couldn't prevent her from making the judge give her guardianship. Also she promised me money, so initially, I tough we can make something out... I was stupid. She kept bothering me about her religion, not directly tho since she gave up converting me back to her cult.
Then, the first porn yelling happened... See in my early journal from 2011. Since then, she keeps speaking like she lives in an invisible world where her god gives her money. When we saw gift money, she said God gave it... while it was only some of her fellows from the cult.
Every time she found out something she told us satan is trying to convince us to be on his side... ever since her help gets into bothering...

The reason I never tell her anything, if I have a problem, is because I'm afraid of her. I'm afraid she will use it to lure me into her beliefs, or as an opportunity to say its because what we watch. I dont want to tell her about my heartache, since she is convinced its just air between my organs and my bones... She also got overly neurotic when I got Ill, she tough I was catching the H1N1, and wanted to make me fall into a financial trap.

So, I am now here, locked in the wrong family, the wrong guardian... and also... starting to deny I need this all as well.

Something is nearly shining. People from the court, and even the professors start to get suspicious over my autism, which my mother fights even now. I think. She also got a disease now, went to hospital for it, but sadly, it wasn't nature defeating her yet. At least... it seems...
I gave hopes for people helping me, and they seem supportive of me, rather than telling me that "mother wants you good" and stuff. Only few people said it. I hope mother nature will punish my mother herself, since... its a metaphor for her seemingly down falling health. She often gets upset a lot nowadays, and thats what doesnt make her good. If I see it right, she wont live too long, or wont be capable to keep her guardianship. Also, if the judge is remembered right, I am kept in a bubble all along, which doesn't use for me.

I would have some cards against her to indirectly shake her off... but I need help from people. I want to make sure to quit this circle from hell, as soon as possible. Even if I have to switch my guardian.

TL:DR:
in general, mother forces her belief upon me, and judges everyone who does something she doesn't like wich drives me Crazy.