Here i am packing up the room my brother let us stay in while i was down here bringing Jake to his ship, and it feels like half of my soul I'd being ripped away from me,. For the last 8 months he has been next to me just about every moment, and now he's not going to be. Tonight is our last night together and i don't think I'm gonna be able to hold it together. I try so hard to be strong for him and me, i try to show him how amazing and wonderful life can be, I've been there every step making sure he had everything he could possibly want. We are only going to be separated by 11 hours, but sleeping alone in "our" room is going to be so hard. Before i met Jake, i had gotten used to being alone, and now i can't bear the thought of not having him next to me when i wake up, when i go into work, when i eat lunch, when i come home from work, when i make dinner, when i watch TV, and when i go to sleep.... We can make it through this but damn this sucks and hurts so much. I love him with every fiber of my being, someday i will give him the home with a family he has always wanted.