It's come to my attention that my previous journal's been there for like 6 months... (ok, so Ive noticed before but this is the first time Ive sat down and done something about it).

Hmmm,

Updates: Been working at my first ever full time job since the middle of December.... can't believe it's already been 3 full months .... so this whole 40hrs a week thing is pretty crazy ya?... It's working out as well as can be expected I suppose though it does feel odd to have such a large portion of my waking hours decided (even when in school/college it never quite felt like this). And the monies are better than Ive ever made (to be expected given Ive only ever really worked in service jobs up until this newest one).


As some have noticed, Ive been going through spurts of creative (read: desperate/horny/omg-I-just-realized-its-been-weeks-if-not-months-since-I-started-these-commissions) work... Im pleasantly surprised I haven't reverted to stick figures and sharpies (who'm I kidding... I was always more of a finger painter at heart). I am happy that my commissioners are such a considerate bunch and that they've been pleased (as far as I can tell) so far. To them, and any future potential commissioners, I AM trying to settle my free-time a bit better now that it has been a few months at the new job.

On a personal note: I suppose life can be rough/lonely.... with work causing such a distraction to my attentions I suppose I can be okay with being "single".. though even that's not really true... though it is... *shrugs* I suppose there are bits of my past that Id like to have in place today, then I think about them sometimes and really wonder if I would.... maybe I just need "something".... /end philosophical melancholy/drama/self-pity.....

Personal note #2.... I need to work out. I was going great over the summer/early last year. I was going 2-3x a week, eating alright, improving marginally but still keeping motivated. Then I went on a family trip for 10 days.... then hurt my shoulder (previous journal).... then starting different part time/temp jobs... then this new full time job... now Ive gone to Planet Fitness (the gym Ive been spending 20$ a month on a membership for) like 6 times since June (ok... maybe like 8 times >.>)... I hate not having "those" genes... or not being able to find my drive... or something. I need to do something... though I suppose this builds into the whining from the previous rant (i.e. I don't feel "want/needed physically/intimately" thus subconsciously I use that as an excuse to not strive to better myself (or look good naked >.>....)... sooooo yeah. Puppies and Sunshine

I suppose I should go to bed... work tomorrow *blarg*