Well Ill just have to keep trying so tomorrow is going to be the day that me and a friend are going to at least look through the wanted adds and see where to attack. If this falls into place then somehow everything else will just seem to fall into place with a car job and classes. But like any good piece of fiction I;m sure someone or something will come in my way. I really am to critical of my own work I mean I tried to draw the worst thing ever and I just kept stopping myself but its a process its not like i'm going to be showing what i'm drawing to anyone, and I always seem to know exactly how something should look in my head and the process to do it but my hands are just too clumsy. but I preserver. so two things if there is anyone out there who reads this and cares to comment, how many hours do you think I should put into it? Oh and some personal info now top five things I wanted to be when I grew up swordsman, geneticist, writer, surgeon, candy maker. There are pictures of me with swords since I was able to walk, I loved Jurassic Park so much that I wanted to make dinosaurs myself, I used to watch THC back when they showed nothing but prerecorded surgeries and thought that maybe I could do that too, I liked being able to make up my own original ideas and see where they could take off as a kid, and finally after watching Willy Wanka in the chocolate factory who did't want to make candy. And now in rapid succession why I didn't follow through with any of them, no local schools, failed chemistry, failed English twice in college and can't focus when writing a story, no where near enough money even with veterans benefits and chemistry, and I don't know where to start with that do I apply to la cordon bleu and I also failed chemistry in high school. Living the American dream here.