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I need to start drawing again.
12 years ago
Just I really do. Also some how find a way to stop working at GE. While My real desire would be to be a Science Teacher, or work as a research scientist, I'd also wouldn't mind doing art more. But it doesn't pay, and I'm not skilled enough for it to be a paying gig. And right now I need something "Stable" to keep the comic company going, take care of my self and my ma.
I need to stop working at GE its making me a very angry person. In my whole life I can honestly say before working at GE theirs been 7 REAL times I've ever been scary mad/Angry. SINCE working at GE I've already matched that. :(
last year a Guy made a joke about me looking like Trayvon Marten in a hoody and I'd better watch out or I might get shot if I have skittles and Arizona in my hand. I gave a very dark angry "HA!. HA! HA!" but its been bothering me all year. And besides some things I've been hearing him act with... Yeah their sense of humor is ughh at best, even for some one like me who doesn't fully get human humor, somethings even I know isn't funny. Anyway
A guy who just got back from Iraq whos 3 years younger than me, is also having a time with the other guy. The whole Old vs. Young stuff. But I guess thats also been eating at me all year too.
So yesterday (3-23-13) I saw him in a hoody and I snapped at him shaking with kaio-ken Times 90 level rage. I was SURE I'd turn super sayian with the anger I had. I was almost off the ground with the trembling and yelling at him with saying "oh its ok for you to wear a hoody but If I do, I better watch out or I'll get shot like Trayvon" I'm not used to being this angry all the time (or even at all) plus with my heart STILL not fully working well.. I just can't be here to much longer, however unfortunately theirs no real options in this economic situation (and with my slow ability to learn physical skills. And I can't just jump Ship like Slugbox and many other artists and self support with art since well I don't digital Crayon gud) :/ I need the money to keep supporting my self, and the people in the company as well as my mom.
Brother finally moved out though and is back with his wife, Hope shes not driving him nuts anymore. Would have been nice if he had a job while he was here and helped pay some bills. :/
I need to stop working at GE its making me a very angry person. In my whole life I can honestly say before working at GE theirs been 7 REAL times I've ever been scary mad/Angry. SINCE working at GE I've already matched that. :(
last year a Guy made a joke about me looking like Trayvon Marten in a hoody and I'd better watch out or I might get shot if I have skittles and Arizona in my hand. I gave a very dark angry "HA!. HA! HA!" but its been bothering me all year. And besides some things I've been hearing him act with... Yeah their sense of humor is ughh at best, even for some one like me who doesn't fully get human humor, somethings even I know isn't funny. Anyway
A guy who just got back from Iraq whos 3 years younger than me, is also having a time with the other guy. The whole Old vs. Young stuff. But I guess thats also been eating at me all year too.
So yesterday (3-23-13) I saw him in a hoody and I snapped at him shaking with kaio-ken Times 90 level rage. I was SURE I'd turn super sayian with the anger I had. I was almost off the ground with the trembling and yelling at him with saying "oh its ok for you to wear a hoody but If I do, I better watch out or I'll get shot like Trayvon" I'm not used to being this angry all the time (or even at all) plus with my heart STILL not fully working well.. I just can't be here to much longer, however unfortunately theirs no real options in this economic situation (and with my slow ability to learn physical skills. And I can't just jump Ship like Slugbox and many other artists and self support with art since well I don't digital Crayon gud) :/ I need the money to keep supporting my self, and the people in the company as well as my mom.
Brother finally moved out though and is back with his wife, Hope shes not driving him nuts anymore. Would have been nice if he had a job while he was here and helped pay some bills. :/
Did stuff start floating off the ground while you were "powering up"?
I remember taking some pretty unrewarding jobs... They always pay the bills, but paying the bills doesn't always make up for surrendering your pride or self esteem. Unfortunately we often have to do these things to survive these days. Just keep the faith man and remember that a brighter day's on the horizon eventually. Stay tough JC. \=)
Yeah I am "overall" in a better place then I was afew years ago. The people that know me, know what I've really have been through, and pulled myself and my mom out of homelessness, and slowly out of poverty.
But I need to do more than just work, I need to create. However it seems hard. This 1 job with hardly any work for me to do makes me more tired then when I was working 2 or 3 jobs. So Tired that I come home passout and get barely anything done for AVP, and nothing done for myself art wise.
I would love to get my own comic series started after all these years.
Damn thing paid well, but I felt tired at the end of the day and empty on the inside because I could never get anything creative done on the side, and I'd go right back to work the next day to get my ass kicked again! O___o When you don't have that outlet as a creative person, anybody'd have a tough time getting by =\
I've been wanting to put my own comics out since I was 19. (Not the adult stuff you see here 9___9) I'm hopin' that I can do so by the end of this year or 2014. Who knows? Maybe we can assemble a crew and make like the Planeteers and let out powers combine for something awesome!
Jason, I wish you all the best man.
I'm sorry you're stuck in that kind of a situation; I don't want you winding up like my father, age 64, working 60 hour weeks, and all his co-workers treat him like he's an old has been, though he's the only one who can fix half the stuff at his work.
I hope not etehr. I really need to create and not just exsist.
And darn it I haven't been on a date in 18 years. XD FUGHERETHWRRERRRRR!
yes, creation is the greatest joy, I think:)
and I hope you find someone worthy of taking on a date; it seems like most are just in it for the nookie nowadays