I sit at home constantly not doing anything with my life or anything productive at all,maybe im just lazy,maybe it really isnt my fault,or maybe im doing something wrong but i do try,I've been busy trying to fix loose ends and make amends,find love and help my friends.Instead with all that other stuff i've been doing,i havent really been making progress in life,im still ol useless me for now...im just sick of being left in the dust with the question how are things gonna be in a few years,i wont be 19 forever and i dont wanna be poor,unemployed,homeless,hopeless,dumb anymore.I am gonna be doing something for myself soon...i hope