Well it’s time for one of those Journal entries where I spew all the worrisome crap going on in my mind for all of the interwebs to see in an attempt to seek some kind of solace. Not entirely sure how that works, but hey! It makes for good entertainment.

And with that, I’ll serve up some good drama!

I hate to be cryptic here, but I've been ‘advised’ to prepare for the future. What that means is in order for me to prepare for the future, I’m about to piss away almost all my entire life savings of cash in an attempt to *ahem* better position myself financially in the current fiscal climate. …*cough*. Yes. By spending nearly everything I have and all that I’ve worked for and saved, I’m ‘doing myself a favor’. 8D You know, god freaking forbid the market system goes into another free fall crash (like in 2008) has another minor correction and I get laid off again and be a lazy good for nothing slob who just needs to stop having a vacation, get a job, and stop complaining. I’d be SOL. o____o So yes, I’m having huge Buyer’s Remorse at the moment, and I’m losing a little (a lot) of sleep over it, I’m having trouble focusing and being motivated at my job. I just want these next few weeks to be over and done with.

*sigh*

Alright well some GOOD NEWS. I have put in a deposit for a fursuit for my dragon character Eredran. =D And despite the aforementioned drama, I am setting aside cash to have this done, even if I get into financial trouble or not. Yay.

Because I’m going to be financially strapped, after the current painting I’m working on, afterwords I will most likely start taking commission work. I’ll cross this bridge when I get there.

Whew, alright. Yeah I kinda feel better after getting all this out in print. Doesn’t help when I re-read it. ;___;