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One Mourned Relationship Later
12 years ago
To Do List:
-Commission
-Contract
-Get a Shave
-Prep for Job Fair
-Event Committee meeting
-Get outta my slump and do some frickin' roleplay. >:C
-HOPES AND DREAAAAMS
Think I'm starting to understand why people frequently post their business on the internet for all to see. Always figured it was a cry for help, or some such like that but...I dunno, somehow, this feels a little better than just posting crap in a little book to keep hidden in dark corners of the room. Or wherever people keep their journals and diaries.
...anyway, so. Little over a year, another relationship sunk. Lost a wonderful girl, some dreams crushed and hopes dashed, felt like shit. (What is it about women that make men do that even when they're not exactly at fault for things? Never understood that.) Thanks to wonderful friends, what feels like'd normally take months or so (and has) to grieve ended in a day, though I'm half expecting to relapse and bawl my eyes out sometime. Loving attachment sucks like that, as does still loving after getting kicked to the curb. As does experiencing so much anger, sorrow, and getting over-critical over things so many times within 24 hours. Pain in the ass - wanted to cry, wanted to puke, was on the verge of doing both and yet couldn't.
BUT. Friends. Awesome, beautiful, wonderful friends. And comedians. Comedians poking fun at the worst of life situations always makes things better. Got dumped on Sunday, spent up til...I guess about an hour ago feeling like shit over it. Still kinda do, but eh. What can ya do besides suck it up and move on.
And I got a LOT of moving to do as well. Fun part was I got dumped the same night I was prepping for a long week of working my ass off in hunting for employment and getting old contracts done, ended up a mess and now pulling myself out of it with a job fair tomorrow and deadline of two weeks for EVERYTHING. Fffff-- D:
So much to do. I go in for oral surgery, need paperwork done, so much art to do, and please please PLEASE I hope I can feel better enough about myself to sleep tonight. Seriously, it's been...somewhere between 24-38 hours and I've been feeling too miserable to get a wink of sleep. Heck, I've even sitting here with I dunno what energy typing up a storm with one of these journals. (Which I think maybe I should do more often. This really DOES feel kinda good... <_< )
So in a nutshell, work, work, work, hopefully a little play, bawl on friends' shoulders if needed again (sorry guys :'D Least ya'll got a heads up this time.), more work, sleep, get my butt to job fair tomorrow. And and and...job fair. Yeah.
*deeeep breath*
So summary, another failed relationship, a lot of work, staying un-depressed by some miracle, and keeping busy in duties so I can get life goals handled before it's too late for anything else. So here goes today and til the next update around here. Wish me luck. + _+
-Commission
-Contract
-Get a Shave
-Prep for Job Fair
-Event Committee meeting
-Get outta my slump and do some frickin' roleplay. >:C
-HOPES AND DREAAAAMS
Think I'm starting to understand why people frequently post their business on the internet for all to see. Always figured it was a cry for help, or some such like that but...I dunno, somehow, this feels a little better than just posting crap in a little book to keep hidden in dark corners of the room. Or wherever people keep their journals and diaries.
...anyway, so. Little over a year, another relationship sunk. Lost a wonderful girl, some dreams crushed and hopes dashed, felt like shit. (What is it about women that make men do that even when they're not exactly at fault for things? Never understood that.) Thanks to wonderful friends, what feels like'd normally take months or so (and has) to grieve ended in a day, though I'm half expecting to relapse and bawl my eyes out sometime. Loving attachment sucks like that, as does still loving after getting kicked to the curb. As does experiencing so much anger, sorrow, and getting over-critical over things so many times within 24 hours. Pain in the ass - wanted to cry, wanted to puke, was on the verge of doing both and yet couldn't.
BUT. Friends. Awesome, beautiful, wonderful friends. And comedians. Comedians poking fun at the worst of life situations always makes things better. Got dumped on Sunday, spent up til...I guess about an hour ago feeling like shit over it. Still kinda do, but eh. What can ya do besides suck it up and move on.
And I got a LOT of moving to do as well. Fun part was I got dumped the same night I was prepping for a long week of working my ass off in hunting for employment and getting old contracts done, ended up a mess and now pulling myself out of it with a job fair tomorrow and deadline of two weeks for EVERYTHING. Fffff-- D:
So much to do. I go in for oral surgery, need paperwork done, so much art to do, and please please PLEASE I hope I can feel better enough about myself to sleep tonight. Seriously, it's been...somewhere between 24-38 hours and I've been feeling too miserable to get a wink of sleep. Heck, I've even sitting here with I dunno what energy typing up a storm with one of these journals. (Which I think maybe I should do more often. This really DOES feel kinda good... <_< )
So in a nutshell, work, work, work, hopefully a little play, bawl on friends' shoulders if needed again (sorry guys :'D Least ya'll got a heads up this time.), more work, sleep, get my butt to job fair tomorrow. And and and...job fair. Yeah.
*deeeep breath*
So summary, another failed relationship, a lot of work, staying un-depressed by some miracle, and keeping busy in duties so I can get life goals handled before it's too late for anything else. So here goes today and til the next update around here. Wish me luck. + _+
DireWolf505
~direwolf505
Ahh, hell. Sucks to hear that.
