Sorry guys, heads up, this is one of those downer/ feeling like crap journals.

Just feeling like crap. Last night things came to a bit of an understanding/head and while theres no real agsnt happening, its got me to think more on what happened *from last night and over time* and just has me feeling like extra baggage. my current situation being something to use against me and always feel like I have to be lead by the hand.

for clarification this has everything to do with my immediate family and nothing to do with my relationship with my girlfriend. I am only putting this up in a way to relieve the pressure I'm feeling.