Seeking a little guidance for morale
12 years ago
General
I've got a job (Sure, it's not the best and the pay seems to be kinda small), I've got a place to stay, I've got some online family and friends and I've got my boyfriend waiting for me. So why am I feeling so stressed and depressed? Why do I sometimes feel like life still isn't worth it? I feel lonely and sad and even bored. What am I going to do if I can't get over this? What can help? I couldn't sleep thinking about this and struggling with depression.
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You could also find some kind of outlet. I find exercise helps get the endorphins flowing. I always feel really good about myself after working to exhaustion, just in the knowledge that I've put in a bunch of effort to make myself more fit when I didn't have to. You could also try reading, writing (which I know you've done before on AAAB at least. Quite well, I may add!), watching movies, learning an instrument. Anything that appeals to you, really! Just pick something and run with it. =3
You can try to think back to a time when you were happy. Think to yourself: What did you enjoy at that time? How were you living? What were you doing? Trying to rekindle your love for things you used to do can really help. Did you like to go swimming as a kid? Why not go for a swim? Did you like bike-riding? Well, go bike riding. Anything like that!
Also try keeping a log of your negative thoughts. Write them down, try your best to turn them positive. Write the positive thoughts down alongside the negative ones in a different color pen. They can be anything from a disproving of the bad thoughts (e.g. I'm not worthless, I have a job and I make my boyfriend happy!) to a silver lining (e.g. Well, I may not like my job, but at least I can look forward to relaxing at the end of the day.) - anything positive you can find, you should focus on that. Meditate on those positive thoughts. Let them replace the bad ones.
What I've described here is the very basics of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, which is very popular in psychology today. The combination of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and antidepressants has been shown to be one of the most successful forms of treatment for clinical depression.
BUT, I'm not a professional. You should probably see a doctor. The sooner you get help, the better everything will turn out for you! =3
The situations have been a bit difficult. My job isn't the best and my pay seems to be a little messed up for the rank I am right now. (I'm working towards getting it looked into). Plus the stress they put on us can wear me down. I think the worse of it all is how lonely I am. I have acquaintances but I don't want to go to clubs and bars to get drunk and hook up with chicks. I'm not that type of guy. I just really wish I could be with Remmus right now.
But yeah. I'll try to get back into the things that were fun for me. Thanks so much for the advice! You've been a great friend and wolf bro. :3
And yeah, I know what you mean about your acquaintances and not wanting to get drunk and stuff. I like a good conversation over some beers, but clubbing, getting wasted and hooking up just aren't that enjoyable. I guess when you're with that kind of crowd you can feel like a fish out of water. D: