Today I took the opportunity to read back on all the journals I've posted since being here. It's hard to believe that I've been around this long and I'm sure one day my future self will look here on reflection. My inspirations have all been short lived, I've never put forth the effort to write any stories other than what I've posted so long ago. I keep making mistakes and I don't seem to learn from them. I know it's only a matter of time before things go downhill again and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I've been waiting all this time for someone to save me from myself and all I ever get is that I have to help myself.

I haven't seen my son since the divorce. I miss him terribly. Drake, daddy loves you.