Well it's really a hard to control my breakdowns right now...so many things are happening all at once...all I can do is watch...watch them...no matter what I do people refuse my help...so I sit there and watch...slowly destroying me emotionally...I don't even know who I am anymore...to the point where I'm not even the same person who joined FA 6 months ago (with old account  hunt3rz)... Yeah sure I'm happy sometimes for only week or so but I'm back to the same when it wears off...idk what's happening to me..