And now I guess I am a orphan, though in many ways I have been since I was 12. Goodbye mum. In the words of Elliott Smith, Im never gonna know you now, but Im goona love you anyhow. For giving me life, if nothing else, and I forgive you everything that came after, because I have to in order to go on.

I dont know how I am going to go in this new world, but if I make it I guess this was the first day of the beginning of healing. I am a lucky hoss and I have people around me now who will hold me if I fall. I think it is doble. Time will tell.

Normal clydesdale service will resume soon. Till then, may you all feel warmth and care, and a light to guide you home if ever you stray too far from shore.