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silently screaming and slapping myself
12 years ago
i am getting drowsy and i keep dosing off AUGH WAKE UP !!
i have been all over the place this week end. i went to visit my grandmother in assisted living. it was nice. she seems to be drinking and eating more but her mind is still gone since that serious stroke. but i have a cross between hope that she will get better, and sorta sadness for her quality of life if she gets worse or stays this way. its hard to tell if she can hear us. she looks around and smiles when she sees my brother or i.
maybe what really hit me hard this week end was dad and my aunt have decided that they were going to clean out her house and probably sell it soon . she has lived in that house since my dad was my age. its full of memories. and im sad to see things getting boxed up. and some things taken to good will.
i got to keep some nice things as memories. i found a little bird she always had dangling from her cain. it jingles . a few bottles of perfume. one of them is opium which is a smell my mother wears allot. some mugs , and a magnet.that she bought as a souvenir from our trip to the grand canyon. i think im going to bring her that one.my dad gave me all her fancy tea cups to keep though so im probably going to have a fancy tea party with my friends soon.
and the last thing of note i took was a magnifying glass... to you know... burn stuff. haha but no seriously i thought it might be handy to have.
among all the stuff going on with my grandma i feel myself sort of becoming depressed. i go in and out but its a feeling like being dragged to the bottom of the ocean. i should see my friends more but i don't feel like big groups as of late. i need to just hang out with a smaller group of my closer friends. do something fun. i might need to round up some of my girl friends to go cloths shopping ahhh.
art has been a battle as always . i am struggling to improve and find myself at an im pass. i don't feel inspired most of the time lately. but in this art block i have been pushing myself to draw things i don't usually like to draw. like Back grounds and more dynamic perspectives. @H@ always a challenge.
wow this must be the most i have ever put in a journal.. HAH sorry for the wall of text gaiz ;;
i have been all over the place this week end. i went to visit my grandmother in assisted living. it was nice. she seems to be drinking and eating more but her mind is still gone since that serious stroke. but i have a cross between hope that she will get better, and sorta sadness for her quality of life if she gets worse or stays this way. its hard to tell if she can hear us. she looks around and smiles when she sees my brother or i.
maybe what really hit me hard this week end was dad and my aunt have decided that they were going to clean out her house and probably sell it soon . she has lived in that house since my dad was my age. its full of memories. and im sad to see things getting boxed up. and some things taken to good will.
i got to keep some nice things as memories. i found a little bird she always had dangling from her cain. it jingles . a few bottles of perfume. one of them is opium which is a smell my mother wears allot. some mugs , and a magnet.that she bought as a souvenir from our trip to the grand canyon. i think im going to bring her that one.my dad gave me all her fancy tea cups to keep though so im probably going to have a fancy tea party with my friends soon.
and the last thing of note i took was a magnifying glass... to you know... burn stuff. haha but no seriously i thought it might be handy to have.
among all the stuff going on with my grandma i feel myself sort of becoming depressed. i go in and out but its a feeling like being dragged to the bottom of the ocean. i should see my friends more but i don't feel like big groups as of late. i need to just hang out with a smaller group of my closer friends. do something fun. i might need to round up some of my girl friends to go cloths shopping ahhh.
art has been a battle as always . i am struggling to improve and find myself at an im pass. i don't feel inspired most of the time lately. but in this art block i have been pushing myself to draw things i don't usually like to draw. like Back grounds and more dynamic perspectives. @H@ always a challenge.
wow this must be the most i have ever put in a journal.. HAH sorry for the wall of text gaiz ;;
Sketch-Silver
~sketch-silver
Just hang on everything will be alright. *hugs*
