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Little rant...
12 years ago
Ever get the feeling like your stuck in a rut? Cause I know for a fact that I do.
When I was in high school I though by this time in my life I would be working towards becoming a vet, saving up to move out and have a steady boyfriend. Currently none of these seem to be coming true. For one I dropped the though of becoming a vet because I have a hard time dealing with blood (in real life, fake blood and wounds don't faze me), I'm still trying to save to move out but that seems like a dead end street with my job going no where. And the boyfriend situation is a joke, I hate to admit this but I've only ever been on three dates, none resulting in a boyfriend of any sort.
God, some times I wonder if I'm ever going to meet someone, or if I was just meant to be alone for the rest of my life. I'm 22 and I'm stuck at a job I don't care for, working hours that kill and only getting paid minimum wage. Sure people can argue that at least I have a job, that at lease I'm making money. Well fine, I'll give you that, but I have to pay for my own insurance and rent, and the co-pay for any medical bills, include the cost of gas and my little paycheck dosn't add up to much. No matter how much I save I don't seem to be getting any where.
So for the next months or so, I get to work 7 days a week, and 6 days out of the week I'm gonna be working 8 hours a day. I'm already feeling tired working six days, and sunday was my only day off where I could relax and recuperate and now I don't even get that.
Needless to say I've been a little stressed out, I'm depressed about quite a number of things: things I've already spoke about here, and other issues that have to deal with me that I won't mention because its embarrassing and I have a hard time even mentioning it to family. Its going to be really tough trying to make it though the next 4-5 weeks of none stop work and the depression I've been trying to push through.
Anyways, thats the end of my little rant. Sorry to bug you people, but its are to speak these things aloud, some times its just easier to type them.
When I was in high school I though by this time in my life I would be working towards becoming a vet, saving up to move out and have a steady boyfriend. Currently none of these seem to be coming true. For one I dropped the though of becoming a vet because I have a hard time dealing with blood (in real life, fake blood and wounds don't faze me), I'm still trying to save to move out but that seems like a dead end street with my job going no where. And the boyfriend situation is a joke, I hate to admit this but I've only ever been on three dates, none resulting in a boyfriend of any sort.
God, some times I wonder if I'm ever going to meet someone, or if I was just meant to be alone for the rest of my life. I'm 22 and I'm stuck at a job I don't care for, working hours that kill and only getting paid minimum wage. Sure people can argue that at least I have a job, that at lease I'm making money. Well fine, I'll give you that, but I have to pay for my own insurance and rent, and the co-pay for any medical bills, include the cost of gas and my little paycheck dosn't add up to much. No matter how much I save I don't seem to be getting any where.
So for the next months or so, I get to work 7 days a week, and 6 days out of the week I'm gonna be working 8 hours a day. I'm already feeling tired working six days, and sunday was my only day off where I could relax and recuperate and now I don't even get that.
Needless to say I've been a little stressed out, I'm depressed about quite a number of things: things I've already spoke about here, and other issues that have to deal with me that I won't mention because its embarrassing and I have a hard time even mentioning it to family. Its going to be really tough trying to make it though the next 4-5 weeks of none stop work and the depression I've been trying to push through.
Anyways, thats the end of my little rant. Sorry to bug you people, but its are to speak these things aloud, some times its just easier to type them.
Papafel
~papafel
-hugs you- Don't worry...Just because things are hard and going really slow right now doesn't mean it'll never change for the better. Allow time to progress and look into ways toward independance. Remember, times aren't like how they were for our parent's generation and such...moving out at 20 doesn't happen that much anymore. Economy sucks, college is expensive, jobs are hard to find. The fact is it'll take time to get yourself where you'd like to be and there's nothing wrong with that, just keep working hard and being awesome okay? ;-;
indigo_the_cat
~indigothecat
If I were single, I'd be interested in getting to know you and seeing how things pan out. Of course, I also love Turians, so... XD There'll be someone out there, just you wait and see.
