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Doubtful animator
17 years ago
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To Braford Muscle fans out there, this journal may not for you.
Ok, to start I and many others have all seen the newest animation he posted to day on FA of his buff bear doing sit-up.
While I'm not jealous of his skills of modeling and high number of faves. (Let's face it he's Braford, there is no way anyone can beat him in that department. )
It's the comments he received that made me feel sad and doubtful of myself.
While scrolling through the comments, I kept seeing some of people saying. "Wow this is the most realistic animation ever" and such.
Some of these are from people who commented on my own animations.
So I kinda feel like the same people have lied to me about how good my animation are, (I know too well that they are not, and I asked everyone to be honest about the animation, not lie about it) and some make it sound like my animations are the best thing since...... (Need to think of something)
But there is also that fact I have lied to people about stuff I said.
What I mean by that is a while ago, I got a private note from a watcher saying how good my animations were.
Naturally, I told him about Braford's great work and that he's way better then me.
But.. the watcher replied saying that my animations were somehow better, more life you could say.
So I said this stupid theory, that might we both had opposite weaknesses.
That Braford lacked the Animations skills.
And I lacked the ability to do fantastic modeling. (Well I know that 2nd part is true at least.)
You can see for one stupid moment, I thought I might of had something that the famous Braford might have lacked. (I know I couldn't confirm it.)
A few days later another watcher said that Braford does Animating as a full time job, while we were chatting about animation.
Personally I didn't know this, as Braford is usually too busy to tell us about his personal life. (I still wish he could do a small biography of himself, it be interesting to read.)
And this morning when chatting to someguy on MSN, they made me question even more about my skill.
As they pointed out how poor my camera movements where and how I didn't have a storyboard.
Sadly he left before I could respond, and that I was a little upset on what he said.
I only did the Exveemon posing animation for fun.
No seriousness in the animation, just fun.
As I wasn't confident on how well Exveemon would move and work, as he had errors. And since my mum freaks out and complains when ever she finds a single muscle drawing, you can imagine her reactions if he found a entire storyboard of a flexing muscled digimon.
(I had to make sure she was out of the house when I made the 3D model and animate.)
Anyway, the whole point is that I'm unsure what people think about my skills. Some say I'm good, and some are saying I'm trying to hard and should quit.
Which makes me worry once again since I've now finished a 3year college course on Animation.
I got an Letter yesterday saying I qualify to get my degree and attend the graduation.
And with a possible animation job coming up.
I'm just feeling very doubtful right now.
Ok, to start I and many others have all seen the newest animation he posted to day on FA of his buff bear doing sit-up.
While I'm not jealous of his skills of modeling and high number of faves. (Let's face it he's Braford, there is no way anyone can beat him in that department. )
It's the comments he received that made me feel sad and doubtful of myself.
While scrolling through the comments, I kept seeing some of people saying. "Wow this is the most realistic animation ever" and such.
Some of these are from people who commented on my own animations.
So I kinda feel like the same people have lied to me about how good my animation are, (I know too well that they are not, and I asked everyone to be honest about the animation, not lie about it) and some make it sound like my animations are the best thing since...... (Need to think of something)
But there is also that fact I have lied to people about stuff I said.
What I mean by that is a while ago, I got a private note from a watcher saying how good my animations were.
Naturally, I told him about Braford's great work and that he's way better then me.
But.. the watcher replied saying that my animations were somehow better, more life you could say.
So I said this stupid theory, that might we both had opposite weaknesses.
That Braford lacked the Animations skills.
And I lacked the ability to do fantastic modeling. (Well I know that 2nd part is true at least.)
You can see for one stupid moment, I thought I might of had something that the famous Braford might have lacked. (I know I couldn't confirm it.)
A few days later another watcher said that Braford does Animating as a full time job, while we were chatting about animation.
Personally I didn't know this, as Braford is usually too busy to tell us about his personal life. (I still wish he could do a small biography of himself, it be interesting to read.)
And this morning when chatting to someguy on MSN, they made me question even more about my skill.
As they pointed out how poor my camera movements where and how I didn't have a storyboard.
Sadly he left before I could respond, and that I was a little upset on what he said.
I only did the Exveemon posing animation for fun.
No seriousness in the animation, just fun.
As I wasn't confident on how well Exveemon would move and work, as he had errors. And since my mum freaks out and complains when ever she finds a single muscle drawing, you can imagine her reactions if he found a entire storyboard of a flexing muscled digimon.
(I had to make sure she was out of the house when I made the 3D model and animate.)
Anyway, the whole point is that I'm unsure what people think about my skills. Some say I'm good, and some are saying I'm trying to hard and should quit.
Which makes me worry once again since I've now finished a 3year college course on Animation.
I got an Letter yesterday saying I qualify to get my degree and attend the graduation.
And with a possible animation job coming up.
I'm just feeling very doubtful right now.
Just continue to do what you do and you will get there eventually. :3
But this person who said about the camera, never posted it in his response on the 15th. So it saddens me it took him 9 days to late to tell me about it.
I usually prefer fast feedback, (my habit as an animator) so I can make quick changes sooner and not later otherwise it's too late and I get cranky.
At one point I had hoped Braford might have seen my animation, as he is on my watch and part of the reason I made the 3D muscle attempt was because of his work.
But he hasn't, I've tried sending him a note, but I doubt he'll respond.
Don't feel so down about yourself, everyone has their own specialties and strengths, you just need to further explore yours. :3 *hugs*
Your animation was really good and let me tell you this-- your animation was A LOT longer than any of Brafords animations. So, theres something you can look upon. Keep at it. Nobody is forcing you to do anything you don't want to do. I've rattled on enough and I'm sure I repeated myself in there a few times. >.>
~ Alpha
so pucker up, lift up your head and practice. (yay for lectures!)
Try getting a little more inspiration out of Bradford's or other 3D renderer's works than doubt. And... while I honestly don't know if there's a workaround for this, I'd have to say... you really need a more encouraging mom, it's a possible factor to your confidence, but don't lean on that, you chose your degree, not her.
So right now, you have to take criticisms the best as you can, and worry (but don't stress) about the situation at hand right now: your concern about your skill. You have a graduation to attend, that should already prove how far you made it.