Pretty solemn.

Where's the quote from?

Actually, I can't remember. It's from a tune.
The closing is I Walk Alone, which is pretty much true. I have had a few people agree completely, but I still fought the battle alone. No one stepped up and said "Dude, I'll do one, too! Pass the good word!"
I mean, I already tried the "Being a good example" bit. Bringing a character with integrity and being a good role model and nothing happened. I was told that she was too perfect (By someone who has a bunny who has dynamo boobs so she can throw green plasma energy attack punches and a punch that leaves craters in the ground. They also accused me of being the kind of guy who turns into a murderer. Sure, perhaps with a phone call I could turn her front lawn into a burnout box for the Sons of Silence. I just aint no killer.)
I hoped to get people joining the bandwagon, but it never came. It's just a sign.

Be that as it may, I just hope you can move on after this :) To bigger and better things, as the saying goes...

Dunno if I can or not. My heart is still in termoil. I just can't do anything more. "You see me now a veterain of a thousand psychic wars. My enemies have been spent aat last and my armor is destroyed. I have used up all my weapons and I'm helpless and bereaved. Wounds are all I'm made of. Dare you say that this is victory?"
Things are going downhill, sometimes fast sometims slow. It's like a rollercoaster, the thing is each following rise is shorter and the fall is greater.

That's understandable; that kind of pain takes a long time too heal from. Just don't let it rule you :)

Some say wounds like that never heal. If they're still there when the person who is hurt passes on they carry the torment into the afterlife and are often anchored to the earth from it.
At least I'll have good seats for armageddon.

Hmmm... are you sure you'd be willing to handle that kind of torment for that long? I figure that could make a soul go insane.

It's not a willingness or nonwillingness thing. I can't just let go because I should be able to.

That's what worries me; that kind of thing can drive a person mad.

Too late, already AM

I knew you'd say that :p

This whole WORLD is fucked up! You think you can change it on your own? So don't go emo on it like the whiny bitch you have been and move on. Sometimes, you have to turn the other cheek and ignore the crap that goes on.

I don't think I can change it on my own, but dammit I need help to do it. Ignoring the crap isn't going to make it go away. I may have gone about it wrong, but I put forth the effort at least.
There are times where you turn the other cheek and move on.
Then there are times you turn their other cheek with a healthy right cross (metaphorically speaking)
Like I said, and you agreed, choosing not to look at something wrong is often the worst thing you can do. If a mother is beating her child in a grocery store do you just turn away and ignore it while the mother screams and they child cries out? Or do you do something? I didn't know what to do, so I tried what I thought up. I created characters that were, in my opinion, cool, lovable, and brought a positive face to the sport and maybe some people would have some fun with it. I had a few boxers, mixed martial artists, karate, vale tu do, a few other misc. characters. THey were the kind of people who would be just fun to BE around, and still serious and passionate about the sport. Didn't work. I tried just being part of groups like hanging with Tetsuo and others in Anme or Manga and message boards they were in. I started two web sites and two groups on Yahpoo. The yahooo groups became corrupt with porn, I asked people to put up thier own galleries, but keep it PG-13 or so but no, they had to put up thier hermie pics. So I closed them down. Another friend on my list here has a Yahoo groups he still has up devoted to it. Unfortunately it, too, has become not much more than Tetsuo's gallery.
Like I say, you see a few Green or Tet pieces you've seen them all. But their fans are so obsessed with their art, that sheep mentalititty, it doesn't matter that they have run out of ideas and just recycle.

You can't change people, don't expect them to. If it's not in their heart then there's nothing you can do...legally anyways.

And going back to the grocery store, what if the child was acting up? Would you prefer if the kid was whining and crying like a spoiled brat instead of getting some punishment?

SOME punishment, but not being beaten. (I see a lot of that. My job requires me to stand there and do nothing.)
A spank on the butt, okay. I'm down for that. A slap across the face, yanked into the air by the wrist, dropped in a shopping cart, and then forced roughly to sit down... that is another matter.
Same goes with my feelings. Like that pic of the topless lady I gave you there. That's okay. Woman WANT to be sexy, feel sexy, look good. They also want to be LOVED, RESPECTED, CARED ABOUT. More than sexy. I could never love a character like Green Legend or Laine or K.O., I'd be afraid to TOUCH them. A lot of it is also publicity stills.
Me... I changed... a few times in life. People can be changed, I know you're going to say "Yuo did it all the wrong way you fucking retarded asshole motherfucker!"
Yeah, I did do it wrong. All the ways Ihoped were right didn't do the job and I got mean spirited.
Not being able to be here is what's going to bring me some moving on. It makes me sad I have to leave like this but at the same time it's a SHIT load better than watching the one thing I have left in life to enjoy (aside from my car) be sullied with giant cocks and loose twats and big breasted brain damaged vixens.

Why do you think I'm still single? People throw away their virginity like it's a bad thing. One guy I knew had sex in a fucking dumpster! And it was cold too so it didn't even go well. And no, you think too harsh of me. Yeah, you did things wrong, but it's time to put FA to rest. It's nothing BUT porn...the main reason I'm on here is to finish my story, the sprites are only to get attention, but after I'm done with my story...I might leave FA myself.

My advice is to not waste your time with stories on FA. I tried it, others have tried it. People just aren't interested in reading stories. I uploaded hundreds of pages of story here on DA with a lot of commissioned artwork to draw attention to what I was doing and it didn't work.
Plus, if your story gets out there and makes it further away from the furries and into a more mainstream readership then what you're going to get is a bunch of "normies" nailing your past at FA. It's like a political mudslinging bunch of crap.
For me it's too late. The story is dead, it will never see anyone's eyes. I can't write anymore. If you're still doing it go to places specifically for writers, otherwise you'll end up disappointed like me. Maybe not as stubborn or angry, just defeated.
I just got done tearing Dragoneer a new one.

I know I don't stand much of a chance with just a story, but screw the odds! I'm stubborn as hell! This story means a lot to me so I'm not giving up on it like that! Besides, even if a few only read it...that's a start. And from what they've told me about it...I'm not quitting it. They LIKED it, they WANT more! Rise of the Alters will continue to its finish...not to mention side stories as well.
I'm used to the disappointment, that was all during my Starwing days when I first started my stories and no one read it.

Must be nice, I had people at first telling me my story was great, then they admitted that they were only telling me that because I was happier when I was doing it, and that there were a lot of very serious issues that needed addressed and by the time I fixed it all it wasn't my story anymore. I couldn't even get in to writing it as it was. It's the mechanic in me. Like a scratch on a paintjob odds are 90% of the people out there don't notice or care, but I know it's there and it drives me up the wall. Like most paint jobs you can just sand it and respray the area or it becomes blatantly obvious and the flow is totally ruined so you have to sand down the entire car and respray it which means stripping off all the chrome trim, lights, moulding, and glass where you find more issues.... then you fix those issues and find those repairs cause other issues that need to be resolved... "Crap, the window railing is completely swiss-cheesed with rust holes" so out comes the tig welder...
I aint got the legs to do that anymore. I love science fiction and apparently it went way over thier heads. I threw away two footlockers and most of a third of nothing but research work. All that work and "Well, it wasn't very good. We just told you it was because you were happy doing it."
I have the same issue with my 1969 Camaro. After an accident I couldn't get the front body panels to align properly. No one would notice unless they knew the lines of a 69 Camaro well, I still feel self conscious driving it because I know it's there.

I don't have people that'd tell me to keep going if they didn't like it. Afterall, I did question how some of them liked it. And I'm getting more people to read it still! Slowly but surely, and I'll get more. I'll find ways.
The version of my story you see in my gallery now? Already redone...at first I saw it it was meh, but I improved it by doing the whole thing over especially the prologue. But now...my story is gonna take abig turn, not sure if people are ready for it so I'll try and get chapter 12 ready too. It might even make you shiver in fear or in disgust, if it does...I'm doing my job.

Horror was something I studied extensively. I, like Rob Zombie, had a love for the cheezy. I tried to use a modern twist.
I was way too technical. I thought if authors like Dale Brown could do it, so could I. Many of his books came with a dictionary to look up things. I had a talent for fear, horror, and personalities that were just plain sick and disturbing.
When I was writing it I was a happy guy, not who you talk to now. It's been more than 20 years since I began putting concepts together. Not sure when I started writing, but the longest I ever went in one shot before scrapping it was 3000 pages. I think in the decades I was putting pencil to paper we estimate possibly hundreds of thousands. (Wore clean through keys on some computers. My old Dell Laptop ended up getting keyboards replaced twice and needed a third when the computer finally died.) replaced numerous keyboards on other computers and monitors.
I was so proud of the work I was doing. I thought I was doing something good.

What the hell were you writing, a dictionary-sized novel?

I don't like big fancy words in stories that you need a dictionary for. Otherwise, people lose interest. I keep the wording in mine simple and worded so people can understand, because that's what I want people to do. And imagine what's going on in their own heads.

Actually I had four volumes planned, that could have been easily made into five if the editing process didn't shrink things down enough.
Most of the words weren't big and fancy, they were just technical. It's difficult to explain. Being too technical was one of the downfalls I was trying. A lot of the technical aspects were ART. The lead male protagonist was basically a furry Chip Foose. He built custom cars on commission (at the beginning, didn't have time for long) and a "Sleek jet black 1969 Stingray Corvette" just doesn't cut it since that describes about a good 25% of what people with 69 Vettes do. I shot myself with that one. Other things such as how prosthetic limbs being a permanent part of the body could have very harsh psychological results, as well as how they work. I learned to describe what understeer was like as opposed to oversteer and so on.
In the end, none of it, was any good. Aelius up there was about the last guy who had faith it could work. He's the only one who would like to see me keep going.
Now that my memory is completely blown (Doctor's made damn sure of that) I'd never be able to try again anyway. So I gave away all that art, I lost most of that art in a flood, but the 200 some odd pieces I still had I gave away. No story to go with the art, no point.
So, did you put that trouble ticket in yet? I ripped Dragoneer a new one and am getting ready to go after Fender. I guess you could say I'm about to go on a Fender Bender.

Riiight...your stories, they don't sound interesting enough, or if anything WAAAY to freaking long! Yes, mine is to be long, but it's all apart of the plot, with action going on. And since there's lots of characters, I need to include their viewpoints as well on what's happening with them. And there's to be twists and turns, and psychlogical drama.
And I've sent in notes to 3 freakin admins; 1 didn't look at it, other 2 didn't answer...and one IS Dragoneer....I think the admins are either being retarded or too lazy to care.

The only things i got right with my work is the character creations and the concept on the general plot. The rest sounds like what a lot of people said about the Transformers movie. Too much detail to take in at any given moment. That and my storytelling skills suck donkey eggs.
The initial concept was "where did all the amazing native warriors of the world go?", you know, the Indian who could shapeshift into animal forms to defend against invaders, the Shamans with enough spiritual pull to get the Gods to blot out the sun, so on. Where did they go? Answer, home. My Uncle is a shaman, and he told a story of a star many indians looks to that he called Pledia, and that is where all Cherokee come from. (I think, i no longer have my notes).I twisted it a bit so it is the cosmic pitri dish of the universe, the source of ALL life, and a Shaman found a way to return there. So any time a race was in danger of being wiped out many would be rescued and taken there. (That's where the missing south American tribes all went.)
The plot is around three primary protagonists and antagonists. Each volume would focus more closely on one specific "good guy" while the others develpped in the background as everyone interacted. The final 4th to fifth volume would be on ending the antagonistic menace "once and for all" in thier ploy to take control of both Pledia and our own planet earth.

And you wonder why people don't want to read it...NOBODY wants to read VOLUMES of work no matter how good it is. And what are you even gonna talk about? Their entire life history? My story has flashbacks that fills the blanks as to show a little about each character's past. Sure I'll have to make separate stories for certain characters like Summers, but geez, you're gonna kill your reader!

No, not their entire life story. One thing I know editing takes a lot of bulk out of a work. I do tend to overkill, and if the hooks are right a long story doesn't seem so long which is my ultimate problem. If you can grab the reader you could have a book equal to the complete unedited Bible five times over and people will want to read it. I just didn't know how to put the hooks in. The concepts were praised and the character creation was praised, one of the things that stands out most as being a problem was it didn't have any hooks. It would work for people into those specific things but people into a lot of the specific traits I utilize don't read much. They're "The cool crowd" and "The jock crowd" in general (And no I'm not saying jocks or cool people don't like to read. They're just statistically less likely to pic up a book than someone like you who gets a lot more enjoyment out of a good story. I mean people who don't get into it unless they're the one doing it. Why read about a high speed chase when you can go out and cause one and reap the benefit of the adrenaline and the bragging rights that come with the consequences?) And size matters.
I have friends who have published books where they had a volume run 800 pages. He turned it in to a pro editor and it came back with 200 or so. The Editor was good enough to edit it out and tie it together so the reader doesn't know what he was missing. I don't have that kind of money, otherwise trust me, I'd let ALL the ideas fly let the editor do what he will and be happy. I have friends who were willing to do editing for me, but they're not pros and they're afraid of me enough to not cut things out. They know I know things like... how to serve a nice quail dinner to kill them without adding poison. (No, I'd NEVER do that. I am known for my temper and they just don't want to push me any further away than I have already taken myself.)
But that's neither here nor there.
Usually when I submit a trouble ticket it takes a week or so before I hear something. If I don't get banned by Monday, I'll go start picking on some baby furs. I really held my tongue a lot with Green and the others. The baby furs I can go after full tilt.