All my life has become is one great moment followed by a moment of misery. Its been this way for the last 6 years. Since New Years, it has been getting worse. it has gone from misery to full blown depression.

As a result, i am considering leaving the fandom. The fandom has always been kind to me. It welcomed me when i didnt think i had anywhere to go. i an truly a furry at heart. But i have reached a point in my life where I dont believe i deserve to be a member of such a great group of people. I also feel that I dont deserve to have the friends the I have made since i joined. And most importantly, I dont feel that I deserve to have a mate. The one fur that I am closest to (you know who you are) informed me that he had taken a mate the day before I was going to ask him to be my mate. That was 5 weeks ago, and it has been downhill ever since.

Those of you who know me well enough know that I dont make decisions easily. It will be some time before I decide whether or not I am going to leave or going to stay. As for looking for a new mate, I dont believe that there is someone out there who is right for me.