Counting the days [vent] (2 Commission Spots Open) -- Hallowed

Counting the days [vent] (2 Commission Spots Open)

12 years ago General

The rest of my family went to the Dells last night for my brothers birthday and I opted to stay home because I needed to work (money), I'm going on a trip of my own this weekend, and hello home alone. I was not home for more than 20 minutes before I some how did everything in the book wrong.

I had the house to myself. I had friends over and watched Tangled. Such a horrible kid. I don't understand what I did wrong or what's going on. I haven't said anything to them and barely said anything when they started attacking me knowing it would fuel the fire. But not saying anything to them is making it just as bad. I literally can not leave my room without getting yelled at for something or another.

I just don't know anymore.

I don't drink, I don't smoke (cigarettes or weed), I don't go to parties, I want tattoos but since I'm living under their roof I have yet to get any of them even though I am of age that I could buy my own, they hate piercings so I don't have my lip rings and the nose ring was a push. My idea of fun is sitting with my friends drawing, gaming, or having a photoshoot. I have a temper. I will be the first to admit that. I've gotten better at being able to bite my tongue and not say anything. If you're close to me I'll speak my mind and let you know exactly what I think of whatever. I've bit my tongue and have said nothing with every fight my parents and I have gotten into recently.

I just. Don't know.

I really don't.

Will I ever be good enough for someone?

Anyone?

Or am I programmed to only reach that moment of happiness and bliss before having that path way ripped from underneath me only to have me shatter and fall more and further than before?

By the way commission info HERE

 Commissions 

1. Digital Full Body Shaded (x3) - Reworking 1 -  Snowfieldnebula 

2.  Traditional Pin-ups( x 2 )- Haven't started -  Snowfieldnebula 

3. Traditional Flat Colored - Haven't Started -  kyooyo 

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12 Comments

Roaring-Flame-Cat ~roaring-flame-cat

Jack of all trades

12 years ago

Wanna live with Bri and I? XD

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles. :< This sucks.

Hallowed_Arts ~hallowedarts

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

I would strongly consider it, but I don't have money for rent, and I doubt my car would fit on your driveway with the vans aha, and I'd probably wake you up every weekday morning I have to get to work at 8am.

Thank you so much though.

And it does...I just need out.. Two nights ago I didn't have to worry about anything. I had friends over we did whatever talked normally not needed to watch our tongues goofed around and watched TV stress free. It's almost like if I were to stay home from Stevens Point, I could move out and get an apartment...but I want out of this state...far far away...and going to school is one step closer to finding my way west after.

Zero_Phantomhive ~zerophantomhive

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

The best advice I can give you is this: keep biting your tongue with the parent, every time you get a check take a amount from that and put it in a savings account every time you get paid. If possible help with minor bills if help is needed, and save up to move out.

I'm in a similar situation the difference is I'm having problems finding work. And don't ever, ever think you aren't good enough for somebody your sweet, talented and a over all great person! Just sometimes life has a sick sense of humor.

And from smoker to non smoker don't start smoking, ever. Cigarettes are horrible, they stink too.

Hallowed_Arts ~hallowedarts

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

Thank you, and biting my tongue seems to be the only thing I can do with them lately. I have a savings account and anything I get from commissions is going right toward it. Most of my paychecks go into my checking so I can pay for my car (I just paid off) for gas and insurance and such.... Apartments around where I live are roughly $650 a month..apartments where I will be going to school ten minutes from campus around $250-$350 on average for the same amount of room...I just need to get there.

I hope that work comes your way or people just load commissions on you darling. And thank you...I just..ever since I've been trying to change my thought process from what i've been told countless amounts of times by a handful of people (Long story short pretty much I'm useless and everything's my fault), I start getting happy and things like this explode over night... But thank you...I needed that....

I won't smoke...can't smoke...I'm asthmatic. I've always hated the smell and everything.

And I'm glad that you think that. Aha...

Zero_Phantomhive ~zerophantomhive

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

And your idea of fun sound like a eventful day to a hermit like me x3

AkiraWolfEyes ~akirawolfeyes

Digital Artist

12 years ago

Every one has a Temper my friend. ^_^ and i was in the same situation with my folks when i lived with them. i remember once i asked my mom if i could get my lip pierced and she said she would "think about it" which really means she is going to go look up all the reasons not to let me get one, she let some nurse tell her some cracked up story that they get infected stupidly easily and that she had a patient come in oosing green puss from it. while i am sure that was true. but i knew she just needed an excuse not to let me get one. now here i am living with my mate and im still wanting a lip ring and tats. i kno eventually i will get a tat, me and my mate are gunna get ours at the same time ^_^ but now i have to convince him to let me get a lip ring =/. cause i really want one still.

but anyway i went on a vent sorry :) and you are handling that situation better than most. when i lived with my folks i was almost never aloud to go over to friends. i did smoke pot, but hey my folks didnt know that. and if that makes me a bad person, then oh well. lol. where was i going with this?? -taps my chin- well. no worries, youll be outta there faster than you know it. i think thats all i wanted to say.. but i think i forgot something. =/

Hallowed_Arts ~hallowedarts

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

At least your mom even said "I'll see" and took the time to get some ridiculous story my mother pretty but goes, "FUCK NO you gonna be able to pay for that shit you're going to have to start paying rent!" and when I tell her I will she says she'll kick me out of the house and all this nonsense and I show her respect by not doing anything that I want (tattoo and piercing wise) and it's still not good enough. I saaaaay go get your lip done. If your mate is going to stay by you anyway, just get if if you want it. And it's fine venting is still good~

Well thank you...at least someone things so. I don't care if people smoke weed, I just don't. And people that I know who do...that's all they do. If it's a once in a while thing I don't mind as much. I'm trying to..thank yathough . I'm just sick and tired of them throwing a fit over everything and blaming me. it's ridiculous.

AkiraWolfEyes ~akirawolfeyes

Digital Artist

12 years ago

im sorry that is really rough =/ and i think i will ^_^. i love piercings. (well certain ones lol)

And Once again anytime,feel free to seek me out if you need any sort of advice, ill happily offer some. but i do somewhat kno what your going through. so i understand =/

Hallowed_Arts ~hallowedarts

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

I love a majority of piercings there's only a few that I can't stand. And others I think only certain people can pull off. : ]

And thank you again. I need to do that but I'll probably end up bothering you xD

AkiraWolfEyes ~akirawolfeyes

Digital Artist

12 years ago

nah you wont not to worry at all :D seriously

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Hallowed_Arts ~hallowedarts

Traditional Artist

12 years ago

thank you that actually made me smile. ahah

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