I am "back at home" and I've never felt more lost.
The space around me feels foreign.
I don't even feel like I have anyone here.
I just spent and hour with my girlfriend and it felt like I was alone. It just didn't feel the same.
We went into stores and she vanished, which normal was fine we'd fine each other and talk for hours about things we found.
Not this time, no.
She'd vanish and when we met there were maybe two words said....that's it....

I twitted about being bored and one of my friends came back that we get it Illinois is boring.
I was just making a comment.
If this is what my month of break is going to be like...I don't want it....
I would rather go back up north and be technically "alone" there.
One of my friends offered me to come with them maybe the offer is still open.

I just feel...out of place here...like I'm back but everyone but my family could careless.
Just. Sigh. I don't know.