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Queen Bitch: Return of the Liar
12 years ago
I have a bit of an issue with lying.
Oh, I know. Quite hypocritical. Role Play is the poor man's Acting, and what is acting but the grand execution of a well rehearsed lie?
Every time I log into Taps, I'm lying about my gender, profession and a dozen different measurements.
The lie I hate most, however, is when you claim something is the final straw and the words "never" or "forever" are used. They're two states of the same concept, infinity. "For the rest of time", yea or nay.
When I say "I'm never coming back", I damn well fucking mean it. Mostly because of honor. Or honesty, perhaps.
Inevitably, if someone says "I'm never coming back", some other person will cast doubt and will call you out as a liar with "They'll be back".
NO.
When I'm gone, I'm fucking gone.
When a local Subway charged me double the price of a sandwich just for asking to replace one meat with another, I told myself I would never go back. And I haven't, to any subway since, in over two years. When a message board I used to moderate at closed down my forum due to philosophical disagreements, I vowed to never return. Naturally, I was taunted with "You'll be back". 13 years later, NOPE ASSHOLES, I MEANT FOREVER.
It's not a grudge either. It's self preservation. When I leave and vow to never return, it's because I've endured an unnecessary hardship of some sort, and no amount of reason or apologies are going to make up for it. Leaving yourself in an abusive situation is sadistic.
To this effect, when someone says "I'm never coming back", I take their word for it. I see you, as me. You've assessed the situation, you've recognized something as conflicting to you that cannot be changed reasonably, so you are removing yourself from harms way. Good for you. I'm certain that this decision is the best decision.
So if you say these things, I believe you. I take it as a sign of proper permanence. This is goodbye. I may hate to see you leave, but best of luck on your journey.
HOWEVER...
If you toss this shit around willy nilly and do come back, you've lost my trust. You've lied to me. And much more importantly, I've already grieved for your departure.
I CAN'T BE HAPPY THAT YOU'RE BACK BECAUSE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE GONE FOREVER.
That's what you told me. That's why I was sad. If you had eluded to the notion you'd come back some day, I would hold out some glimmer of hope that this might be true. I would remember you fondly as a time that might be visited anew someday, rather than feel remorse and mourning that these memories of better times would never be repeated.
You're a goddamn liar, and I wish you'd stayed gone. I'll prefer not to associate with you again, as you've already proven your affinity for lying and abandoning your compatriots. You know who you are.
Oh, I know. Quite hypocritical. Role Play is the poor man's Acting, and what is acting but the grand execution of a well rehearsed lie?
Every time I log into Taps, I'm lying about my gender, profession and a dozen different measurements.
The lie I hate most, however, is when you claim something is the final straw and the words "never" or "forever" are used. They're two states of the same concept, infinity. "For the rest of time", yea or nay.
When I say "I'm never coming back", I damn well fucking mean it. Mostly because of honor. Or honesty, perhaps.
Inevitably, if someone says "I'm never coming back", some other person will cast doubt and will call you out as a liar with "They'll be back".
NO.
When I'm gone, I'm fucking gone.
When a local Subway charged me double the price of a sandwich just for asking to replace one meat with another, I told myself I would never go back. And I haven't, to any subway since, in over two years. When a message board I used to moderate at closed down my forum due to philosophical disagreements, I vowed to never return. Naturally, I was taunted with "You'll be back". 13 years later, NOPE ASSHOLES, I MEANT FOREVER.
It's not a grudge either. It's self preservation. When I leave and vow to never return, it's because I've endured an unnecessary hardship of some sort, and no amount of reason or apologies are going to make up for it. Leaving yourself in an abusive situation is sadistic.
To this effect, when someone says "I'm never coming back", I take their word for it. I see you, as me. You've assessed the situation, you've recognized something as conflicting to you that cannot be changed reasonably, so you are removing yourself from harms way. Good for you. I'm certain that this decision is the best decision.
So if you say these things, I believe you. I take it as a sign of proper permanence. This is goodbye. I may hate to see you leave, but best of luck on your journey.
HOWEVER...
If you toss this shit around willy nilly and do come back, you've lost my trust. You've lied to me. And much more importantly, I've already grieved for your departure.
I CAN'T BE HAPPY THAT YOU'RE BACK BECAUSE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE GONE FOREVER.
That's what you told me. That's why I was sad. If you had eluded to the notion you'd come back some day, I would hold out some glimmer of hope that this might be true. I would remember you fondly as a time that might be visited anew someday, rather than feel remorse and mourning that these memories of better times would never be repeated.
You're a goddamn liar, and I wish you'd stayed gone. I'll prefer not to associate with you again, as you've already proven your affinity for lying and abandoning your compatriots. You know who you are.
