I know it's hard to deal with me sometimes. I know that most of my friends want to help and have no idea how to do that. I know that I don't make it easy. I know that I don't speak up until I'm completely fed up to the point of screaming or crying. I know that in a lot of ways this past year has been just as hard for my friends as it has been for me.

I just want to thank you all for sticking around through the worst days of my life, because I can't do this alone. I've tried, and it has broken me. I can't say I blame anyone who wants to get mad at me, I have a lot of shortcomings and right now trying to take them on feels like scaling a mountain. I am just trying to get through it without going insane. If you've ever been sick or injured enough that you couldn't do things you loved, you know what I mean.

So thank you, because I really can't do this alone, and the only reason some of these days have been bearable is because I can talk to people I care about, and who care about me.