But, it marks another year where I get to know you ;>

yea but when was the last we had an actual conversation or spent time talking? =\

chin up myd, i know things will get better. if you would like you can add me on skype later; its been forever and a minute

For me, my birthday is about merely surviving another year in this world, doing what I can to make a difference and experience what it means to have a functioning brain and know what life is. I celebrate for myself, whether or not anyone else acknowledges it. I don't need presents or messages, I just want to have fun and enjoy myself on that day, as everyone should every day. It is nobody's job to be nice to me or care about me. It's pure luck I was born where I was and had halfway decent parents. No one is guaranteed nor inherently deserves any type of kindness or recognition. So celebrate other people instead of waiting for something you inappropriately feel like it's your right to have. Every birthday is a symbol of being one step closer to realizing how nobody needs to provide for you, and how to be more selfless and willing to provide for others.

I'm sorry you feel bad, but sometimes our emotions sweep us to places we don't need to be or feel. Do what you can to think positively and rationally and help yourself feel better. Remember, friends and others aren't necessarily disregarding you in particular, it's because all people are naturally selfish and focused on what's going on in front of them at the moment. Try not to worry about other peoples' actions when you can't control them.

I wish you the best, and encourage you to celebrate other people's birthdays the way you wish people would celebrate yours, whether you get any karma back from it or not. That's all you can do.

I do, I usually try to do what I can to make someone's birthday the best it can be~

I also just have really poor selfesteem =\ have for over a decade xP

I was fortunate in a way to be born into the family I was though I can never be my true self around them...I just always just get this way around my birthday

it really shouldn't matter...but...one thing I know is true about myself...I'm far to harsh on myself =\

Yeah, you are too harsh on yourself. You're just as good as anyone else. You're made of the same stuff, you come from the same place any life comes from, and you're absolutely unique in a way nobody else is. What rational excuse could you have to feel worthless? It's all learned worthlessness, and you've learned wrong. Beyond all that, what you are is essentially what you do. If you make the initiative to try to do good things for the world, how could you believe you're worthless? And if it's something you're not doing, you can always start. You should have no good reason to be harsh on yourself if you start doing hard things in the name of being a good, moral, productive person. And yeah, maybe you're shy or something. Maybe you're depressed. Maybe you have a lot of anxieties. I don't know. Maybe you don't like your personality for some reason, but your personality doesn't matter if you act according to your values. If you do more to be the person you want to be, you can be your true self around everybody.

Just because you've had poor self esteem for a long time doesn't mean you're stuck with it. There's always room for change. It's just a matter of doing things differently.

I am also very lonely on my birthday (April 7). So you are not only one. *wrap my arm around your neck casually and poked your exposed shoulder with my fist*

I know how you feel. But don't be depressed if you can help it. It sucks being sad.
*hugs*, and happy birthday.

ahh short notice -flails around- ..ive wanted to do something for a while but.. ;_; work load. ...would you mind a late present?

*boops your nose* Reply more when I talk to you then. D8

That sucks man. If it makes you feel any better, nobody really gives two shits about my birthday either, so we can split a merry unbirthday cake, which is a cake we will never eat because nobody will bake us one anyway!! lol

doubt you would remember me :/ but i know how ya feel about quite abit of this journal an mainly why i just sledom watcher of the site

ofc I remember you~ I never forget my friends

surprised you would remember me as i was just a brain damaged loser :/ who got bashed an labeled as person who just attention whore for posting journals on how i am doing, thought you wouldnt still think about me as a friend rather just not think of me as one so you can keep out of the shit i got myself into cause this shitty place

hate how people said they do something but 9 out of 10 was pretty much just them saying it to be nice an not really thinking i would remember it at all cause knowing my brain damage left me with memory issues an wanted to use that fact to make a promise to make me feel better knowing full well they will never keep good on promise an even those who couldnt make good on there promise cause of things an just deny it instead of just saying to me they couldnt an be a man/adult about it an say they couldnt keep there promise.

my birthday has always been something that never mattered to my family cause im just stupid retarded person they wouldnt need to remember as why should they care for someone is greatly differnt from them

you underestimate me....I'm much bigger of a person than many would believe me to be...

I couldn't promise any kinds of gifts for your birthday myself but still would try to do something to the best of my ability

doubt it as you barely really talked to me an when you did was mostly you wanting to do rps where i knock you up but never could cause you stop talking if i was in mood to try as like you were just teasing me with no real sense of actually wanting to do it

i didnt message ya to fucking get present out of you =,= just saying i know how ya feel about people promising something an never making good on that promise as to try to you that i understand

wow I try to say a nice thing and you just turn it around and make me out to be someone horrible...

gee...thanks for that

what you expect from a person who most people i thought were friends lied to me so many times an who also when i was back into corner of being harrashed as attention whore cause they didnt want to get invloved in drama even tho i kept getting myself in drama for friends :/ im not really same person cause why the fuck should i care to much about what people think about me as even if i have there back they only have mine in sight to stab it when knowing me will kill your social life on this site

well you be like that and it's not gonna help

there are genuinely good people out in this wretched world...sure you run into a lot of rotten ones but there are some real special ones as well

to have such a negative view on anyone and everyone will only lead to them not liking you in return

and I will say...if you don't have something nice to say in this journal any further...I will 1) hide it

and if you keep doing it...I'm not afraid to block...I HATE doing it but I have so much damn drama in my life I don't need this kind of behavior on top of it

i treated people quite kindly long as they did the same to me, tried to not be to much of a bother, take them up when they say its ok for me to talk to them about stuff but said to be nice. yes there are pretty good people in the world but they never always kind as seem some turn on me ;-; cause talking in streams i was in trying to talk an get ignored so says bye an log off nickname just to make it so it seems i left an see person i thought was nice person before as they talk to the closer to them an they bad mouth me an person i thought was good person doesnt try to stop them just joined in on bashing me.

some few people who delt with me talking about my problems in end yelled at me at end saying i only talk to them to complain about stuff an never talk to them normally, yet i do talk to them normaly an ask how they are an they ask how i been

you can go head an hide message an block me, doesnt matter to me as i barely talk on FA so wouldnt be a problem for me at all

thank you <3

*Makes a note in his calender* I will be there buddy^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I fee; the same when my birthday rolls by... I look back at the previous years only to see I've done nothing and gotten no where with my life... plus no on ever takes notice, I get to spend it alone.

yea that's a big portion of it too...that's mainly it, this is why you and I get along so well, we pretty much whistle the same tune

*hugs*

I'm just your taller, older gay copy xD

taller?

Damn hun. I didn't know D:
I think people can get a bit busy in their life and forget. Especially if they have sooooo many friends.
It's why it's sometimes best to just have a few close friends you can count on.

Also never expect anything, sad to say but I have been going by that for a long time.
Only leads to sad feels.

as emo as this may sound...I've always come to expect nothing simply cuz of the nature of my birthday while growing up

just this year seems to be going to shit already and just continues to get even deeper xP

But you have your love with you!

and I cherish that! :3 you have no idea how much I do...I don't want him to leave in 2 months =<

*gives you a big beastly bear hug* Happy pre-hatchday, even if you seem pessimistic, just enjoy your time with Fred and enjoy what you have! <3

Who knows! After reading this journal out of empathy, I might surprise you with something. :]

It hurts so much to see a dragon so sad. ;.=.;

there's no need but I wouldn't want to burden you for something like that

if you did I'd be so mindblown and I'd be so overjoyed but there's no need for you to do anything

-hugs- thank you for the birthday wish though~

*nuzzles* Either way, you're welcome sweetie. ~^.=.^~

Paaaaaaart of me feels it would be pointless to wish you a happy birthday since it seems like it won't mean anything, and since you and I doooon't really talk. (My fault. Not yours.) The wish would seem even more pointless.


Buuuuuuuuut, Imma wish you one anyway.


HAPPY BIRFDAY!!!!!! :D


Have a complimentary drawing:


http://i.imgur.com/u3iR7gg.png Very NSFW :B (Also, I'm not home at this moment so I had to use my phone :B...and it's 3:00 in the morning XD)

this is SO gonna be my featured pin now! xD

c: Happy Birthday from another that shares your bday. *gives you some cake*

-happily takes the cake- happy belated birthday to you as well <3

c: Thanks deary, hope you had a decent one this year. *hugs*

heh thanks :3 mine wasn't anything special like always, not even a cake this year =\ but meh...I had my fiance here~ so I couldn't be happier

c: *pats your back* So long as you can spend it with someone you love, any day can be a bright one. Well just one of my philosophies.