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Anthrocon 2013 and Other Life Updates
12 years ago
General
Well, Anthrocon will be upon the furry world next week, and everyone in the house I live in will be piling their collective stuff into the cars and shoving off for the long drive to Pittsburgh.
Everyone, that is...except me. :-P
To be honest, I can't really say I was that excited for Anthrocon to start off. Unfortunately, my past experience with the convention sort of turned me off from the whole shebang. I suspect it will be a while before any of the feelings I had for the convention return...if they ever do.
More importantly, I simply can't afford to go this year. The money I would have otherwise had for furry conventions was eaten up by other life changes that have occurred within the last 12 months. Finding the means to procure such money hasn't been entirely easy, either. And while my employment situation has become more stable in the last few months (thank DOG), I don't want to risk anything.
So, for all of the rest of you who will be in Pittsburgh this coming week, may your convention experience be full of excitement, free of drama (good luck on THAT one), and packed with amazing experiences.
With that out of the way, I think a bit of a life update is appropriate.
"Re-building the perfect beast" has been one of my long-term goals in making the move that I did...and while on a relationship level it's been extremely rewarding in some ways, there's one thing that I've sadly neglected. My weight has climbed back up to over 200 lbs, and I'm dangerously close to my all-time high adult weight. I feel disgusting, I don't look good, and frankly, I'm embarrassed of myself that I let myself go (back) like this. Unfortunately, this also spills over into other aspects of my life... (I won't go into details here.)
I've had an open invitation to join up with a few of the fitness furs that are in my area, but I feel that I'm not ready for them. The fitness furs in my area are VERY dedicated to exercise, and to throw me into the mix would be like throwing a cup of lard into a fruit smoothie. I'm HORRIBLY out-of-shape, and my body has been away from an exercise regimen long enough that it'll take a while before I reach a level at which I'll be at least comfortable around other gym bunnies...and bears and rats. Maybe it's just a mental block that I have to either work around or just tear down completely...but I can't live like this much longer.
heh...I've been toying with the idea of posting a pic of myself (in all my disgusting shame) as a motivational trick to get me to exercise. When I think about it though, it's not necessary. I doubt very seriously that anything anyone can say would be more critical and vicious than what goes through my head every time I look in the mirror. So who knows what it's going to take. (If you guys have any suggestions, PLEASE tell me.)
Anyway, I think I'll leave things at that for now. Again, if you're going to AC, have a great time, and I'll see you again when you return!
Everyone, that is...except me. :-P
To be honest, I can't really say I was that excited for Anthrocon to start off. Unfortunately, my past experience with the convention sort of turned me off from the whole shebang. I suspect it will be a while before any of the feelings I had for the convention return...if they ever do.
More importantly, I simply can't afford to go this year. The money I would have otherwise had for furry conventions was eaten up by other life changes that have occurred within the last 12 months. Finding the means to procure such money hasn't been entirely easy, either. And while my employment situation has become more stable in the last few months (thank DOG), I don't want to risk anything.
So, for all of the rest of you who will be in Pittsburgh this coming week, may your convention experience be full of excitement, free of drama (good luck on THAT one), and packed with amazing experiences.
With that out of the way, I think a bit of a life update is appropriate.
"Re-building the perfect beast" has been one of my long-term goals in making the move that I did...and while on a relationship level it's been extremely rewarding in some ways, there's one thing that I've sadly neglected. My weight has climbed back up to over 200 lbs, and I'm dangerously close to my all-time high adult weight. I feel disgusting, I don't look good, and frankly, I'm embarrassed of myself that I let myself go (back) like this. Unfortunately, this also spills over into other aspects of my life... (I won't go into details here.)
I've had an open invitation to join up with a few of the fitness furs that are in my area, but I feel that I'm not ready for them. The fitness furs in my area are VERY dedicated to exercise, and to throw me into the mix would be like throwing a cup of lard into a fruit smoothie. I'm HORRIBLY out-of-shape, and my body has been away from an exercise regimen long enough that it'll take a while before I reach a level at which I'll be at least comfortable around other gym bunnies...and bears and rats. Maybe it's just a mental block that I have to either work around or just tear down completely...but I can't live like this much longer.
heh...I've been toying with the idea of posting a pic of myself (in all my disgusting shame) as a motivational trick to get me to exercise. When I think about it though, it's not necessary. I doubt very seriously that anything anyone can say would be more critical and vicious than what goes through my head every time I look in the mirror. So who knows what it's going to take. (If you guys have any suggestions, PLEASE tell me.)
Anyway, I think I'll leave things at that for now. Again, if you're going to AC, have a great time, and I'll see you again when you return!
I appreciate the offer, and I'll take you up on it one day...I can use all the extra motivation I can get. But again, I like to feel as though I can belong with a peer group, and if I can build myself back up to a certain fitness level, that will help. (That's just my mentality, though.)