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I'm Broken (State of The Fox, June 2015)
10 years ago
I'm a mix of emotions as I type this...I still don't know how to feel about all of this, but I need to get it off my chest.
Three months ago I lost a job that I had held for two years. It was a "temporary assignment", and I knew it could end at any time, but it was with a company I liked working with and had even begun to think of myself as a fellow employee. Then I was told that my services weren't needed anymore. I can't be exactly sure of the reason why I was released. A meeting I had with my manager was pushed back and, unfortunately, I was released from the assignment before I could get any answers directly from her.
In the meantime, I had been looking for employment, applying for every company I thought would have me. I had several contacts with employment agencies and plenty of leads, but nothing solid ever materialized.
As a result, my housemates have run out of patience with my situation and, as a result, I will be leaving Milwaukee tomorrow.
Up to the very end, I was doing everything I thought was within my power to get work. Sadly, it wasn't enough.
My parents have graciously offered a place back at their home for me to stay. I HATE having to put myself in such a situation, but it's really the only viable option left on the table right now. So tomorrow, I'll be moving back to Ohio.
I really have no idea where things will go from here...and I'm honestly scared about what this could mean for me in the long run. I can only hope that this will prove to be a move that will serve me well in the end.
I feel like a complete failure. I don't know what I'm going to do if I can't find work. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. But I need a change in my life. The past three months have been HELL for me, and I can only hope that things will eventually turn around from here.
Guys...I'm not a religious person...but if you do believe, please send some prayers my way. I'm a broken fox right now, and I need all the help I can get.
Needless to say, many parts of my furry life are going to need to be put on hold indefinitely. I need to focus on building myself back up mentally and financially, and neither of things are going to happen until I find work. I was unsuccessful in Wisconsin. I just hope I can find something in Ohio.
Take care guys...and thanks in advance for any thoughts you might send my way.
- Colin
EDIT: Thanks for the words of support...the move was a long one, but I made it to Ohio in one piece. Now begins the prep to start the job search...
Three months ago I lost a job that I had held for two years. It was a "temporary assignment", and I knew it could end at any time, but it was with a company I liked working with and had even begun to think of myself as a fellow employee. Then I was told that my services weren't needed anymore. I can't be exactly sure of the reason why I was released. A meeting I had with my manager was pushed back and, unfortunately, I was released from the assignment before I could get any answers directly from her.
In the meantime, I had been looking for employment, applying for every company I thought would have me. I had several contacts with employment agencies and plenty of leads, but nothing solid ever materialized.
As a result, my housemates have run out of patience with my situation and, as a result, I will be leaving Milwaukee tomorrow.
Up to the very end, I was doing everything I thought was within my power to get work. Sadly, it wasn't enough.
My parents have graciously offered a place back at their home for me to stay. I HATE having to put myself in such a situation, but it's really the only viable option left on the table right now. So tomorrow, I'll be moving back to Ohio.
I really have no idea where things will go from here...and I'm honestly scared about what this could mean for me in the long run. I can only hope that this will prove to be a move that will serve me well in the end.
I feel like a complete failure. I don't know what I'm going to do if I can't find work. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. But I need a change in my life. The past three months have been HELL for me, and I can only hope that things will eventually turn around from here.
Guys...I'm not a religious person...but if you do believe, please send some prayers my way. I'm a broken fox right now, and I need all the help I can get.
Needless to say, many parts of my furry life are going to need to be put on hold indefinitely. I need to focus on building myself back up mentally and financially, and neither of things are going to happen until I find work. I was unsuccessful in Wisconsin. I just hope I can find something in Ohio.
Take care guys...and thanks in advance for any thoughts you might send my way.
- Colin
EDIT: Thanks for the words of support...the move was a long one, but I made it to Ohio in one piece. Now begins the prep to start the job search...
I will be keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that something opens up for you soon.
Good luck with the move back and good luck with what happens to you from this point forward! *hugs*
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Thanks for the kind words, Lunar. *hugs*
There were several things I left back in Milwaukee when I moved...it just didn't make sense to have them carted out with me, with my current living situation being the way it is. I'm glad to hear that the big white moo is still safe for now. (I half-expected someone in the house to throw it in a bonfire by this point.) Somewhere down the line, I'll need to make a decision about that suit. It's getting up there in age as it is, and my opportunities to actually wear him are much more limited these days than they were...but I still have an attachment to him and I'd love to keep him until the time (and circumstances) allow for an eventual replacement. Thanks so much for stepping in on my behalf.
Hopefully everything is going well in Milwaukee...I've heard some big changes are coming for a couple eagles I know. Keep in touch!