I realize that it's been a really long time since I last updated my journal, and for that I apologize. I'd like to say it's been a bed of roses since my last harrowing update, but frankly it hasn't.
Now don't any of you fret, my mate is fine, and has been since my last update, it's our relationship that's been less than stellar lately.
As we've tried to work through her problems, and my own as well, these problems just seem to keep coming back to haunt us. The nature of her trauma has left her socially maladjusted, which has led to several fights over seemingly nothing, mostly as opportunities to shove me away because she lacks confidence in my commitment to this relationship and wants to distance herself so it won't hurt as much if I should leave. I've tried to explain to her how much this hurts me, and she seems to understand and has been making efforts to stop, but every now and then she still does it. I admittedly don't handle this well, being not very well socially adjusted myself, and I tend to overreact, and sometimes overlook how hard she's trying to make changes for me. It just hurts so much when she lashes out at me, and then refuses to talk to me afterward, choosing to let her pain and anger fester than let me help her to work it out.
Admittedly, the stress over this has effected my work, which is why I haven't updated my gallery in such a long time. I lose the will to draw when I'm depressed.

However, it hasn't all been sour, and I can't stress that enough. I wouldn't still be in this relationship if it was all crap, believe me. We do have a lot of fun together, and in truth those good times out number the bad. The happiest week of my life was spent with her, when I flew out to see her early last month. I really did have a wonderful time with her, spending a week of intimacy and quality time with her. We went on our first date to an arcade together, and one of my favorite memories from that trip was playing House of the Dead 2 with her and making fun of the ungodly awful writing and voice acting.

Well, with a large update of images accompanying this journal entry, I've obviously found the will to draw again, and I'd like to think that things between my mate and I are starting to look up. We've still got a long road ahead of us, but I think we'll be there someday.