Lonely rant?
12 years ago
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You know that moment when the bf u want to be with forever breaks up with you, and then find someone else but thats not even good, but then you are stuck still in love with them and then when their relationship dies u try to be friends with him and its total fail. you may of found someone else you like but they might like someone else. and ur stuck...
Idk if you ever had that moment but I sure am...I wish I had someone round that I can bother, they wont judge me for how Ugly, or how messy I am, but would help me out be a friend and look cute for me when I need it...I dont want a relationship I just want a really close guy buddy, who would like to hang out and go places and have cool interest...but how come I cant find that where I live? I know I have great friends but they are all far away I cant hang out with them, I am uber quiet and I want to get out of my shell so I can be all I can be! why is that so much to ask for!?
I went to NY and I saw all the nice and nerdy couples and I wish I had something like that. I feel like nice guys love the girls that treat them like poop...well the ones I know anyway. It seems like if their life wont be exciting with out them so they stay in it. but I know this place is huge but I dont know if there is anyone in my area where I can meet someone from here who is cool...But I also get annoyed when I have to talk to people sometimes b/c I want my alone time so I am a ball of mess...who wants someone to join it sometimes
ugh idk if any of that made logic or what ever
Idk if you ever had that moment but I sure am...I wish I had someone round that I can bother, they wont judge me for how Ugly, or how messy I am, but would help me out be a friend and look cute for me when I need it...I dont want a relationship I just want a really close guy buddy, who would like to hang out and go places and have cool interest...but how come I cant find that where I live? I know I have great friends but they are all far away I cant hang out with them, I am uber quiet and I want to get out of my shell so I can be all I can be! why is that so much to ask for!?
I went to NY and I saw all the nice and nerdy couples and I wish I had something like that. I feel like nice guys love the girls that treat them like poop...well the ones I know anyway. It seems like if their life wont be exciting with out them so they stay in it. but I know this place is huge but I dont know if there is anyone in my area where I can meet someone from here who is cool...But I also get annoyed when I have to talk to people sometimes b/c I want my alone time so I am a ball of mess...who wants someone to join it sometimes
ugh idk if any of that made logic or what ever
It seems that people around us don't have all the things that we look for or we are not what they are looking for, but hey.. I still believe that if I was able to find 2 different persons in quite far away places one from another, there must be more around that can be a good match for us. Maybe near, maybe far, but don't loose the hope. Just don't hurt yourself waiting and wanting to find them soon, try to live your life and enjoy whatever comes. And in the meantime you can have a few of the things you are looking for in other people close by, even if they just give you a little piece of the things that you are looking for.
As you said, if only some of us lived closer to each other, at least we could just hang out and have a nice time ^^
Hopefully we will meet sometime again Miz, and at the very least I could give you some of the big Panda hugs that I should have given you the first time we met.
Take care Miz.. and try to cheer up ^^ *Hugs you a long lasting big Panda hug and smiles*
But yeah, this recent one (I've been single for three-and-a-half years now) really jacked me up. I really didn't see myself with anyone else, but she had different plans. She was nerdy and fun to be with, and didn't seem to mind my furry stuff (except for the porn, I had to give that up). Too bad I had to go and introduce her to "Mr. Right". :P
I know. When she first broke up with me I couldn't eat right for weeks. I lost around 15 pounds. :P
I'm much better off now, and I have much bigger things to worry about, anyway.
I hope you get to feeling better!
My ex dumped me the 31 december 2009 (night), and I was still loving her as fuck. She then proceeded to date one of my friends. So I tried the "Stay friends" thing for over six months. It tore me apart, since I was still having strong feelings for her for almost two years after the breakup. Since then, I felt like life was colorless, tasteless, I was in a deep depression for three years. Seeing couples in the streets was killing me, and I felt like I was alone on Earth, even though some people cared for me, but I wasn't able to notice it back then. I had very dark thoughts.
I was still hoping for an absurd miracle, thinking that time would eventually make me forget about it.
Now if I could go back in time, I'd find myself and slap me a good hundred times. Life is a long adventure with its ups and downs, starring potential 6 billions characters. Don't let one of them bring you down. I know you can't quite control those kind of feelings, but being sad/happy is just a state of mind, depending on your way to see things. You will find what you're looking for. Just give yourself a chance to do so! :)
Hope I'm not re-opening an healing wound. But since I kind of know how it feels, I just can't abstain to share my point of view. Someday you will think of what happened back then, and feel guilty for ever feeling down because of what you wrote in jour journal. Then, you'll laugh of it :)