As a lot of you know, or should know, I come off as a person with very little to say, making me look like an asshole with no interest in the person I'm talking to. It's a bit unfair I'm labeled like that by a good handful of people. Maybe these people just don't understand that not every person in the world is so perky and the life of the party. I have been thinking what exactly my problem is, and how I could explain it.

I'm not sure where to begin. I suppose with my "one-worded" replies. I know I do this a lot, and I'm sorry if it bugs the shit out of you, but when I do this, it usually means I'm upset about something, or I don't know how to reply to it at all. It does NOT always mean I'm uninterested in what you're saying.

I'm an anti-social person. I have to fight myself and build the strength to reply back in the fun, energetic way that everyone expect me to do. That energy quickly drains though, and I do mean quickly. There are times when I just want to be left alone, but I get shit for that too, so I force myself to talk during those times.

People make me nervous, too. I'm scared I'll say the wrong thing and offend the person, having them angry at me. I'm worried I'll make the person uncomfortable as well. Upon being anti-social, I'm socially awkward, too, so I tend to say a lot of things that don't make sense. There's only been a small handful of people that I'm comfortable with, and they know who they are.

I don't know if this is the best way I can explain myself, but it's all I have right now. I don't know if this makes you think I'm more of an asshole, or helped you understand a little more of my social behavior. I didn't make this to be mean, or to piss people off. If if did make you upset in anyway, then I'm sorry.