That's all it takes to realize when a relationship is dead. As much as one can love another, if the other does not return such affection, does not in the least, feel something, it is dead. However...

I was given this threat, that should I fuck up at all, then we were through. As if I were some rapist or abusive partner, no I spoiled her. Gave her anything she wanted, without a single thought, without a blink. I did everything for her, but because her friends think I deserve one single solitary chance, that's all I get, should I ever make a mistake.

I have anxiety, that kind of threat, of losing love, with anxiety, don't go well together, in fact, lead to me vomiting due to fear of loss. I've lost love before, a love that was so beautiful, so amazing, it tore me to shreds and lead me down a dark place for more than a year.

When I asked, is our relationship really so frail, that all I get is one chance, she simply replied, that I asked the impossible. It apparently, is something that cannot be answered. That said, I've been hurt, too many times, and time and time again have I been hurt by fickle people, who allow others to play with their mind. I'm done, love is something I had once, but I'll never have it back again.