This past year has been year has been a unique one for me. Met some guy over the net, decided to go out that same day and meet and go to the movies. What happens later well we started to get closer and well.. BANG! We are an official couple lol. Not to mention my best friend ended up moving with me and my family and found a nice big home to live in. Despite the past years, its all been missery figuring out how to make a good future possible, certain things haven't changed but I don't know if they ever will. Another person that I met that has made an impact on me was a certain boar, wish I could talk to him more but he has more important things to do, like being with a certain folf hehe. Of course they are other people that are in mind but they already know.
I am thankful for all of those people telling me how I'm not alone and always trying their best to cheer me up, I just wish I could get out more and make the feeling of loneliness less noticeable. I don't know where I'm taking this exactly but just wanted to empty my thoughts somewhere, I really haven't been able to talk comfortably about what goes on in my head, been having so many blocks lately. Doesn't help that I'm always left in the dark, sigh... I guess my actual goal is to make a close friend here, sure my roommate is my best friend but I can't talk to him about certain things because then I'll freak him out lol besides he is straight, also to take in consideration, all my place of interest are on the other side of town so makes things worse.
I don't know if I should continue this. Don't know how many people will read this or even care, it just a way for me to clear my mind and think things properly, this is one way of de-fogging my mind. When I try talking about it it makes me feel like an ass because who ever I'm talking to will take it the wrong way and while speaking I'm coming to realization about things, just a way of venting I guess and expressing my thought and emotions. Coming to think of it my thoughts are always all over the place as you can tell by reading things, switch and hoping around different subjects, ah... idk any more, not much I can do right now.
All I can say this has been a unique year for me, I showed more emotion then I have in the past 4 years, I actually cried X.X Made a few mistakes, tried being the person I could be, always being there for the people that I care for.
Now I'm rambling I should just end this before I starting writting some 12 page report lol, even though i wouldn't mind as long as its in my interest, I do enjoy writing since I tend to keep things in my head lol. Well any ways just a random post I guess of mixed feelings, that I had no idea where I was going with.

I'm hungry and I should eat... despite what I wrote, I always enjoy talking to new people if anyone wants to message me or skype. Forgot to say, its most likely irrelivant birthday on August 10...