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Social Anxiety Breakdown Meme
12 years ago
So I just saw this little breakdown post on a blog I follow and thought it would be a interesting meme for those who suffer from S.A.D or just anxiety in general. This would also kinda help explain to people of what I tend to go through on a daily bases.
Scale Fear Avoidance
0 None Never
1 Mild Occasionally
2 Moderate Often
3 Severe Usually
1. Using a telephone in public
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
Usually I rather text then talk on the phone. If it's really important or need to relay a message fast I would accept a call or call someone else, but for the most part, texting is way easier.
2. Participating in a small group activity
Fear: 2| Avoidance: 2
It all depends on the group really, if its people I know, i'm not as nervous, but if its complete strangers I tend to stay quiet and let the other people talk and discuss stuff, as I just shake my head yes or no in agreement of what they are saying. It also depends on the subject matter, if I know what it is, i may participate a little more then usually, but if i don't know a thing about it, i just sit there and hope no one asks for my opinion on it.
3. Eating in public
Fear: 3| Avoidance: 2
My main fear of this is that I fear i'm being judged constantly by how slow I eat, or how I cut my food, or how I eat one section of food at a time. I get incredibly nervous and anxious, when everyone is finished eating and i'm still only half way through my meal. Then I see them looking at me and then my food and then I feel like i'm a inconvenience, cause they want to go some where and i'm holding them up. There is more to this but too long to type.
4. Drinking with others
Fear: 0| Avoidance: 0
This I have no problem with, cause booze usually loosens me up and makes me less aware of myself and how I'm acting. When sober, I tend to focus on everything I do when in a social interaction, but when drinking, I just don't give a shit anymore, cause everyone else around me is the same way.
5. Talking to someone in authority
Fear: 3| Avoidance: 3
I have a big problem with authority, I despise it, but yet if i'm being talked to by a manager, parent, cop, or anyone that has more power then me, I feel like im 5 again, and that I have done something wrong. Usually at job's, I was terrified to ask the manager about a project or to request a day off or even correct them if they messed up my schedule for the next week. I usually just sucked it up and delt with it, so I didn't have to deal with being shot down, or judged by the person in charge.
6. Acting, performing, or speaking in front of an audience
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
This is a tough one for me, almost like a dilemma. I love performing, making videos, acting, and all of that stuff, but again I feel that i'm not good enough, or how people would react to my performing. You would think fursuiting would let me be more of myself since i'm hiding behind a mask, but I get really scared when interacting with other people in suit. Scare i may cross boundaries, or piss someone off, or be too annoying, not active enough, maybe to over active,etc.
The first time i was ever on stage at a con was my first year of AC where I helped out with the Power Ranger skit, i was one of the puddies and the entire time on stage, i didn't look towards the audience, I just focused on not messing up, as soon as it was our cue to get off the stage, i made sure i did. It was a fun skit and all, but was nervous and scared as fuck.
7. Going to a party
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
If it's a friends party and I knew some people there, i would go with no problems, but if its a party that someone invited me too, and I didn't know a single person, i would either not go,leave early, try to get other friends to come with me, or just sit in a corner somewhere.
8. Working while being observed
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I absolutely hate this, it tends to throw me into a full on panic attack. Most of the thoughts that go through my head during this is, "i hope i'm doing this right" , "they're waiting for me to fuck up", "there looking for a reason to say I did something wrong". "why the hell are they watching me, and not someone else".
9. Writing while being observed
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
Pretty much the same as above.
10. Calling someone you don’t know very well
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 2
I'm not as bad as I use to be, but I still try my best to think of other alternatives to contacting the person.
11. Talking face to face with someone you don’t know very well
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
Usually I have no idea what to say, and rarely make eye contact, cause if i do i will think that they are seeing how nervous I am or think im lying or wierd or something.
12. Meeting strangers
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
I rarely talk to strangers unless its to ask directions or something, and that's if my phone dies and I can't use gps. Most of the time if i'm walking down the street by myself and i have to pass through a group of people, i tend to take out my phone and pretend im texting or doing something on it to avoid confrontation with the strangers.
13. Urinating in a public bathroom
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
If there is a stall open or something, I will use that, but if there is only urinals available, i rather hold it then to use one and then have a line behind me waiting to use the one i'm using.
14. Entering a room when others are already seated
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I freaking hate this, cause as soon as you walk in, everyone just stares at you, like you committed genocide or something, and then you can feel they're eyes just follow you to your seat, and feeling them judging you about why your coming in late, or they way you walk or something like that.
15. Being the center of attention
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 2
If i'm not in a fursuit, I hate it, I even hate when its my birthday and people are singing me happy b-day and the spotlight is directly on me, and then having to blow out the candles and then being scared im going to fuck it up, or spit on the cake by accident. I rather just hangout with friends, and eat the cake, minus the whole song deal.
Another thing I hate, which has been recent, is that if i do something dumb or make a fool out of myself, within a day 10 other people know about the incident and always bring it up. About a few weeks ago, my cousin's wife's grandfather passed away and we had to go to a family thing for it at her grandmothers, and I havn't seen her grandmother in awhile so forgot what she had looked like. So when we pull up in the drive way, there is a old women standing outside, and i thought it was her grandmother waiting for us to pull in, so when i got out, i gave her a hug which is rare for me to show emotion like that, and then it turned out that it was the wrong person, it was her grandmother's sister, and she had never met me before in my life. I felt so dumb and embarrassed, and within 3 hours, 6 other people knew about what happened and asked me what happen. I hate when word travels so fast.
16. Speaking up at a meeting
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I usually keep my opinion's to my self at meetings, and maybe talk to the boss about them later one on one when i get the courage too.
17. Taking a test of your ability, skill, or knowledge
Fear: 1 | Avoidance: 1
Not really that bad
18. Expressing disagreement or disapproval to someone you don’t know very well
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
Usually just agree with what they say since i dont want to make them angry or make them hate me in someway or think im a asshole.
19. Looking someone who you don’t know very well straight in the eyes
Fear: 3| Avoidance: 3
Can't really do it, think there peering into my soul and know and judging every little thing about me.
20. Giving a prepared oral talk to a group
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 2
All depends on the subject i'm presenting, usually I would just focus on what im saying and not the group itself.
21. Trying to make someone’s acquaintance for the purpose of a romantic/sexual relationship
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I have a hard time with relationships, since i'm to scared to open up and express my emotions. Im always worried that i'm not good enough, or why this person would even be interested in me, or if they do find interest in me, i think its a fucked up joke that they are playing on me.
22. Returning goods to a store for a refund
Fear: 1 | Avoidance: 3
I really never had too, im usually always happy with the stuff i buy.
23. Giving a party
Fear: 0 | Avoidance: 0
I like parties, and if there is enough beer and people and all, then the party will turn out good, since everyone would be too fucked up to care.
24. Resisting a high pressure sales person
Fear: 1 | Avoidance: 2
I just kinda ignore them or say not interested
Result!
54(fear) + 58(avoidance) = 112
Scale Fear Avoidance
0 None Never
1 Mild Occasionally
2 Moderate Often
3 Severe Usually
1. Using a telephone in public
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
Usually I rather text then talk on the phone. If it's really important or need to relay a message fast I would accept a call or call someone else, but for the most part, texting is way easier.
2. Participating in a small group activity
Fear: 2| Avoidance: 2
It all depends on the group really, if its people I know, i'm not as nervous, but if its complete strangers I tend to stay quiet and let the other people talk and discuss stuff, as I just shake my head yes or no in agreement of what they are saying. It also depends on the subject matter, if I know what it is, i may participate a little more then usually, but if i don't know a thing about it, i just sit there and hope no one asks for my opinion on it.
3. Eating in public
Fear: 3| Avoidance: 2
My main fear of this is that I fear i'm being judged constantly by how slow I eat, or how I cut my food, or how I eat one section of food at a time. I get incredibly nervous and anxious, when everyone is finished eating and i'm still only half way through my meal. Then I see them looking at me and then my food and then I feel like i'm a inconvenience, cause they want to go some where and i'm holding them up. There is more to this but too long to type.
4. Drinking with others
Fear: 0| Avoidance: 0
This I have no problem with, cause booze usually loosens me up and makes me less aware of myself and how I'm acting. When sober, I tend to focus on everything I do when in a social interaction, but when drinking, I just don't give a shit anymore, cause everyone else around me is the same way.
5. Talking to someone in authority
Fear: 3| Avoidance: 3
I have a big problem with authority, I despise it, but yet if i'm being talked to by a manager, parent, cop, or anyone that has more power then me, I feel like im 5 again, and that I have done something wrong. Usually at job's, I was terrified to ask the manager about a project or to request a day off or even correct them if they messed up my schedule for the next week. I usually just sucked it up and delt with it, so I didn't have to deal with being shot down, or judged by the person in charge.
6. Acting, performing, or speaking in front of an audience
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
This is a tough one for me, almost like a dilemma. I love performing, making videos, acting, and all of that stuff, but again I feel that i'm not good enough, or how people would react to my performing. You would think fursuiting would let me be more of myself since i'm hiding behind a mask, but I get really scared when interacting with other people in suit. Scare i may cross boundaries, or piss someone off, or be too annoying, not active enough, maybe to over active,etc.
The first time i was ever on stage at a con was my first year of AC where I helped out with the Power Ranger skit, i was one of the puddies and the entire time on stage, i didn't look towards the audience, I just focused on not messing up, as soon as it was our cue to get off the stage, i made sure i did. It was a fun skit and all, but was nervous and scared as fuck.
7. Going to a party
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
If it's a friends party and I knew some people there, i would go with no problems, but if its a party that someone invited me too, and I didn't know a single person, i would either not go,leave early, try to get other friends to come with me, or just sit in a corner somewhere.
8. Working while being observed
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I absolutely hate this, it tends to throw me into a full on panic attack. Most of the thoughts that go through my head during this is, "i hope i'm doing this right" , "they're waiting for me to fuck up", "there looking for a reason to say I did something wrong". "why the hell are they watching me, and not someone else".
9. Writing while being observed
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
Pretty much the same as above.
10. Calling someone you don’t know very well
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 2
I'm not as bad as I use to be, but I still try my best to think of other alternatives to contacting the person.
11. Talking face to face with someone you don’t know very well
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
Usually I have no idea what to say, and rarely make eye contact, cause if i do i will think that they are seeing how nervous I am or think im lying or wierd or something.
12. Meeting strangers
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
I rarely talk to strangers unless its to ask directions or something, and that's if my phone dies and I can't use gps. Most of the time if i'm walking down the street by myself and i have to pass through a group of people, i tend to take out my phone and pretend im texting or doing something on it to avoid confrontation with the strangers.
13. Urinating in a public bathroom
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 3
If there is a stall open or something, I will use that, but if there is only urinals available, i rather hold it then to use one and then have a line behind me waiting to use the one i'm using.
14. Entering a room when others are already seated
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I freaking hate this, cause as soon as you walk in, everyone just stares at you, like you committed genocide or something, and then you can feel they're eyes just follow you to your seat, and feeling them judging you about why your coming in late, or they way you walk or something like that.
15. Being the center of attention
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 2
If i'm not in a fursuit, I hate it, I even hate when its my birthday and people are singing me happy b-day and the spotlight is directly on me, and then having to blow out the candles and then being scared im going to fuck it up, or spit on the cake by accident. I rather just hangout with friends, and eat the cake, minus the whole song deal.
Another thing I hate, which has been recent, is that if i do something dumb or make a fool out of myself, within a day 10 other people know about the incident and always bring it up. About a few weeks ago, my cousin's wife's grandfather passed away and we had to go to a family thing for it at her grandmothers, and I havn't seen her grandmother in awhile so forgot what she had looked like. So when we pull up in the drive way, there is a old women standing outside, and i thought it was her grandmother waiting for us to pull in, so when i got out, i gave her a hug which is rare for me to show emotion like that, and then it turned out that it was the wrong person, it was her grandmother's sister, and she had never met me before in my life. I felt so dumb and embarrassed, and within 3 hours, 6 other people knew about what happened and asked me what happen. I hate when word travels so fast.
16. Speaking up at a meeting
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I usually keep my opinion's to my self at meetings, and maybe talk to the boss about them later one on one when i get the courage too.
17. Taking a test of your ability, skill, or knowledge
Fear: 1 | Avoidance: 1
Not really that bad
18. Expressing disagreement or disapproval to someone you don’t know very well
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
Usually just agree with what they say since i dont want to make them angry or make them hate me in someway or think im a asshole.
19. Looking someone who you don’t know very well straight in the eyes
Fear: 3| Avoidance: 3
Can't really do it, think there peering into my soul and know and judging every little thing about me.
20. Giving a prepared oral talk to a group
Fear: 2 | Avoidance: 2
All depends on the subject i'm presenting, usually I would just focus on what im saying and not the group itself.
21. Trying to make someone’s acquaintance for the purpose of a romantic/sexual relationship
Fear: 3 | Avoidance: 3
I have a hard time with relationships, since i'm to scared to open up and express my emotions. Im always worried that i'm not good enough, or why this person would even be interested in me, or if they do find interest in me, i think its a fucked up joke that they are playing on me.
22. Returning goods to a store for a refund
Fear: 1 | Avoidance: 3
I really never had too, im usually always happy with the stuff i buy.
23. Giving a party
Fear: 0 | Avoidance: 0
I like parties, and if there is enough beer and people and all, then the party will turn out good, since everyone would be too fucked up to care.
24. Resisting a high pressure sales person
Fear: 1 | Avoidance: 2
I just kinda ignore them or say not interested
Result!
54(fear) + 58(avoidance) = 112
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Kinda in the same boat here too I guess. Not sure if I have SAD but I'm pretty sure I got a bit of anxiety, didn't look into it that much. I think the fear is the worst part. I got over much of the fears but I still hate many of the situations though and try avoid them like the plague. Many not as much as before.
