I've been really into mlp lately, so i feel like drawing them all the time. But I also want to express myself, like, any emotion. I don't know why it's so hard for me. I've also been trying to draw pr0n for self expression, but I'm afraid to upload it since it involves ponies, even though most of the people here can tolerate that stuff.

My passion for drawing kind of started dying once I went into highschool. I'm a Junior now. And I'm having a hard time making comics and writing stories. Ponies is what makes me happy, I don't why I'm so focused on people who don't like it. I just want people to like my art again. I actually don't know what motivates me anymore.

Plus my minds telling me and that I shouldn't like what I like, because it's "too popular" and "it's a kid's show, you shouldn't be drawing stuff like that" and other stuff.

I consider myself a brony and I talk to other bronies that are into grimdark and that kind of stuff. I think it's just I wish I had more rl brony friends so I could feel comfortable with what I'm into. I don't know. I'm just guessing..

I actually have an anatomy book, well, 2. One for realism and another for cartoonish style, but it's hard for me to keep on track with them, and keep myself at what I'm good at. Yeah, I'm gonna try shading, volume, and perspective better. I was, but it kind of died ish. I'm getting back into it.

It's just some of the stuff they say in the books are kind of complicated, but I still learn some of it and fix it into my style. I haven't really been feeling like improving on certain things, which I should. I guess I've just been rushing myself, and I need to just..i dunno, take it one at a time. Start from head to toe, with anatomy.

I'm just like wanting people to like my art without even putting a lot of effort into it. Which is what I feel like.

I also need to learn how to draw building, vehicles, objects, and stuff.

I guess I'll take a break from putting anything on FA, unless I'm comfortable with it and it turns the way I want it to.