as i watch them fall more and more in love im thrown back to the days when i felt the same. the way they hold each other they way they smile at each other i remember it all. her kiss her touch. im happy for them really i am but i cant help but remember her....and with those memories comes the nightmares that follow. im torn in half. yes im over her but i will always lover her so why do i still hurt? im not sure i suppose. it sucks for sure.

i guess in a way i miss it. the touch of someone who truely loves you. the chill when they say your name in a way that cant be matched. when that person smiles only for you. cries for you. tries to help you hold your world together. i miss it all. i dont miss her per say i just miss the company of a lover next to me. the sheer fact knowing when i feel weak and doubt myself i can find strength in her...


i do wish them the best in the future though for their love story may very well continue till the very ends of time and beyond.

that is my hope and will....so mote it be