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I sincerely apologize...
12 years ago
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To my very patient and amazing commissioners,
I thank you so much, I have messaged everyone about this but I feel like my situation merits a bit of explanation.
For the past 6 months or so I've been on the edge of an emotional breakdown because of my current living situation being so far from what is good for myself and my mental state, which is no real fault to anyone, it's just the way it is. My anxiety is through the roof daily, so much that I'll think about something slightly worrying and my heart will try to pound its way out of my chest, and I'll feel like sobbing. This is so far removed from my normal state I feel like it's time for me to focus on myself and really find the cause of all of this. I found out very recently that my landlord is closing my lease in October and although I was looking for a place for a while the importance of me actually FINDING a place I can afford for me and my kittens is finally setting in.
As anyone knows, being this way constantly is not good for your artistic motivation at all. I've been so stagnant on that front that I'm embarrassed. I apologize for all of this run around, and disappointment, I am totally on the same page as you. I am disappointed in myself most of all for not being able to get through this like I normally do. I am usually able to push past this and keep my head up but I've been on 4 hr sleeps a night for the past couple of weeks and it's really bearing down hard on me.
Sorry for all of this whining, I really appreciate the support I have had despite all of this.
I thank you so much, I have messaged everyone about this but I feel like my situation merits a bit of explanation.
For the past 6 months or so I've been on the edge of an emotional breakdown because of my current living situation being so far from what is good for myself and my mental state, which is no real fault to anyone, it's just the way it is. My anxiety is through the roof daily, so much that I'll think about something slightly worrying and my heart will try to pound its way out of my chest, and I'll feel like sobbing. This is so far removed from my normal state I feel like it's time for me to focus on myself and really find the cause of all of this. I found out very recently that my landlord is closing my lease in October and although I was looking for a place for a while the importance of me actually FINDING a place I can afford for me and my kittens is finally setting in.
As anyone knows, being this way constantly is not good for your artistic motivation at all. I've been so stagnant on that front that I'm embarrassed. I apologize for all of this run around, and disappointment, I am totally on the same page as you. I am disappointed in myself most of all for not being able to get through this like I normally do. I am usually able to push past this and keep my head up but I've been on 4 hr sleeps a night for the past couple of weeks and it's really bearing down hard on me.
Sorry for all of this whining, I really appreciate the support I have had despite all of this.
