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Not Dead, Just Hard Times
12 years ago
Hi people
I'm kind of sick today so pardon me if this is jumbled, but I really need to update you guys on alot of things really badly. I've been neglecting the shit out of my art, art sites, pretty much everything. I posted a thing a while back about moving...and really got no response. I had to drop art completely after a while...couldn't even do anything for my hubby bear because just....life.
I've moved out, firstly...Rent is a fickle thing, and expenses are hard. I was pretty much rushed into moving out because of the availability, but I'm honestly furious with my father for doing so. I really wanted to find a stable job before moving out, alas...I am still unsuccessful at that. It looks like I may be able to bag a job as an English Tutor here at the college, but the pay is peanuts. What I really need is an actual part time job, and I haven't had any luck with that yet.
I've completely dropped my SecondLife activity, and all but one video game. The only reason I even started playing said game was to stay in contact with my hubby, even. My life currently has no room for multi-tasking, especially now with classes starting back up. I've no room to just fuck around. My associates degree is so close I can taste it...Andy will be moving down officially between October and December...And god willing I can find a job soon, I won't have much time for alot of things.
And so, this brings me to the point of this journal. Raffle winners, I apologize. I informed all of you that it would take some time, and indeed, I meant several months for some of you. Though it seems I miscalculated how my life would go...once again.
I've made a final determination about my career I want to pursue, and my ability to handle things, and am making an executive decision, and facing facts. I am not capable of taking artistic orders professionally in bulk. When someone requests a painting from me IRL, I can get it done faster than a simple digital order on here. Mainly because I have full artistic freedom, and a time expectancy that is far greater than what most people expect from artists on this website. I have found that I simply am not able to meet deadlines when I put myself under intense pressure, nor can I handle large requests. At least not at this time of my life. Perhaps once in my life I was able to do this...but right now...I simply cannot, and I have to live with that.
Raffle winners, I do want to finish your arts, but I may have to suggest a compromise, and your continued patience. As much as I hate sounding like this, the top priorities on my list have been only things that can benefit me financially, or keep my sanity in check. I have been lucky to be able to even do as much as a doodle lately. The privacy my new housing provides is a godsend, but at the same time, art is still on a slight standstill. I do wish to have more opportunities to draw, and I also wish for opening commissions again, but it's been a decision I've been hesitant to make.
I can't hide the fact that I need money. Like, fucking bad. At least until I can establish a solid job...I just...I have no where else to turn. I didn't want to open up commissions again, but I'm desperate, and I can only hope that people here will understand, and perhaps even give me a chance at some simple commissions. At this point I'll go low and focus on pay what you want commissions. Because I will take anything I can get. Anything to help me. I have too many things riding on the line, and I need to get some sort of temporary budget going. I'm between a rock and a hard place...and I'm suffocating from the stress.
With that being said as well....when I do open up PWYW commissions....it will be limited. Meaning, I want artistic freedom. It's the only way I seem to be able to work lately. Basically I want to keep myself limited to sketchyness and just free reign...things that I find soothing and easier to work with. Things I can control and not stress about.
I realize this is probably going to deter everyone, but if someone would maybe give me a chance with it, it would be much appreciated....
The image involving all the info will be posted in my gallery. Just take a look there please if you are interested.
I'm kind of sick today so pardon me if this is jumbled, but I really need to update you guys on alot of things really badly. I've been neglecting the shit out of my art, art sites, pretty much everything. I posted a thing a while back about moving...and really got no response. I had to drop art completely after a while...couldn't even do anything for my hubby bear because just....life.
I've moved out, firstly...Rent is a fickle thing, and expenses are hard. I was pretty much rushed into moving out because of the availability, but I'm honestly furious with my father for doing so. I really wanted to find a stable job before moving out, alas...I am still unsuccessful at that. It looks like I may be able to bag a job as an English Tutor here at the college, but the pay is peanuts. What I really need is an actual part time job, and I haven't had any luck with that yet.
I've completely dropped my SecondLife activity, and all but one video game. The only reason I even started playing said game was to stay in contact with my hubby, even. My life currently has no room for multi-tasking, especially now with classes starting back up. I've no room to just fuck around. My associates degree is so close I can taste it...Andy will be moving down officially between October and December...And god willing I can find a job soon, I won't have much time for alot of things.
And so, this brings me to the point of this journal. Raffle winners, I apologize. I informed all of you that it would take some time, and indeed, I meant several months for some of you. Though it seems I miscalculated how my life would go...once again.
I've made a final determination about my career I want to pursue, and my ability to handle things, and am making an executive decision, and facing facts. I am not capable of taking artistic orders professionally in bulk. When someone requests a painting from me IRL, I can get it done faster than a simple digital order on here. Mainly because I have full artistic freedom, and a time expectancy that is far greater than what most people expect from artists on this website. I have found that I simply am not able to meet deadlines when I put myself under intense pressure, nor can I handle large requests. At least not at this time of my life. Perhaps once in my life I was able to do this...but right now...I simply cannot, and I have to live with that.
Raffle winners, I do want to finish your arts, but I may have to suggest a compromise, and your continued patience. As much as I hate sounding like this, the top priorities on my list have been only things that can benefit me financially, or keep my sanity in check. I have been lucky to be able to even do as much as a doodle lately. The privacy my new housing provides is a godsend, but at the same time, art is still on a slight standstill. I do wish to have more opportunities to draw, and I also wish for opening commissions again, but it's been a decision I've been hesitant to make.
I can't hide the fact that I need money. Like, fucking bad. At least until I can establish a solid job...I just...I have no where else to turn. I didn't want to open up commissions again, but I'm desperate, and I can only hope that people here will understand, and perhaps even give me a chance at some simple commissions. At this point I'll go low and focus on pay what you want commissions. Because I will take anything I can get. Anything to help me. I have too many things riding on the line, and I need to get some sort of temporary budget going. I'm between a rock and a hard place...and I'm suffocating from the stress.
With that being said as well....when I do open up PWYW commissions....it will be limited. Meaning, I want artistic freedom. It's the only way I seem to be able to work lately. Basically I want to keep myself limited to sketchyness and just free reign...things that I find soothing and easier to work with. Things I can control and not stress about.
I realize this is probably going to deter everyone, but if someone would maybe give me a chance with it, it would be much appreciated....
The image involving all the info will be posted in my gallery. Just take a look there please if you are interested.
Mezmerized-Wolf-
~mezmerized-wolf-
Good luck with everything. I know how that goes. *hugs*
quickster203
~quickster203
sorry things aren't going as you planned or hoped but I know these things can and do happen to most of us. I really do hope that everything will work out for the better for you and hope your able to get through these hard times. as for the raffle art just do it when your able to and have the time but without it conflicting with something else that could be helping you out. Thank you for the update, sorry I didn't reply sooner but I didn't see the journal till I came around and checked. Good luck and I hope those that are able to commission are commissioning you to help you out.
